I Rock
I maintained my 2.5 pound loss from last week. That is a lot for me to lose in one week, so I did not expect to lose any more this week. I am glad I maintained. Plus I switched from my “summer” weigh in clothes to my “winter” weigh in clothes, which I believe (rightly or wrongly) weigh more. Maybe 4 ounces, but it’s a mental thing. And I like to weigh in basically the same clothes to be consistent.
Good workout last night. I did chest and back (but I left my workout book in my gym bag so I can’t record it here until Monday). I also did 10 minutes on the elliptical for 110 calories (why? Because I had 2 cups of swiss miss sugar free cocoa instead of one, so I felt the need to burn off those 100 calories. Do I believe the elliptical trainer is that accurate on calories burned? Of course not. Just more weird mental issues).
When I got home from the gym, I walked 1 mile with my son then 2 miles on my own. I also walked 30 minutes at work. The weather has been perfect for walking, and I am really enjoying it. I’ll keep it up till I get bored.
Speaking of changing it up, S and I are only going to lift 1 day a week together, so I have to switch up my workouts. So I need to be thinking about that. I will most likely drop Monday’s step class and Wednesday’s water aerobics so that I can lift then. That way I can lift 3 days per week. We’ll see.
Have a great weekend!
Friday, October 29, 2004
Thursday, October 28, 2004
Yesterday's Food
For the interested:
B: 1 cup kashi w/ 1 cup skim milk
S: 1 string cheese & baby carrots
L: seafood casserole (leftover), turnip greens, asparagus
S: apple & 1 string cheese
S: 1/2 a Twix
D: beef stew in the crock pot (made with sweet potatoes instead of white ones - really good!) and 1/2 piece homemade whole wheat bread, salad
For the interested:
B: 1 cup kashi w/ 1 cup skim milk
S: 1 string cheese & baby carrots
L: seafood casserole (leftover), turnip greens, asparagus
S: apple & 1 string cheese
S: 1/2 a Twix
D: beef stew in the crock pot (made with sweet potatoes instead of white ones - really good!) and 1/2 piece homemade whole wheat bread, salad
Legs of Jello-O
I did my 3 mile walk last night, although it was slower than normal. I walked after we got home from the gym, and my legs were jelly! Here’s why:
Legs:
Squats: 90/12 100/12 110/12
Leg press: 160/12 180/10 200/8
Leg extentions: 50/12 55/10 60/8
Curls: 65/12 65/10 75/8
Abductor: 70/15 80/12 90/10
Adductor: 70/15 80/12 90/8
Shoulders:
Overhead press: 15/15 20/12 25/10
Lat raise: 10/12 10/10 12.5/8
Rotator cuff: 7.5/12 7.5/15
Front raises: 10/12 12.5/12 15/10
Eating was really excellent! I was totally craving chocolate and had to stop by the grocery on the way home. I bought a Twix, but threw half away on my way out of the store. I thoroughly enjoyed the other half though :-)
I did my 3 mile walk last night, although it was slower than normal. I walked after we got home from the gym, and my legs were jelly! Here’s why:
Legs:
Squats: 90/12 100/12 110/12
Leg press: 160/12 180/10 200/8
Leg extentions: 50/12 55/10 60/8
Curls: 65/12 65/10 75/8
Abductor: 70/15 80/12 90/10
Adductor: 70/15 80/12 90/8
Shoulders:
Overhead press: 15/15 20/12 25/10
Lat raise: 10/12 10/10 12.5/8
Rotator cuff: 7.5/12 7.5/15
Front raises: 10/12 12.5/12 15/10
Eating was really excellent! I was totally craving chocolate and had to stop by the grocery on the way home. I bought a Twix, but threw half away on my way out of the store. I thoroughly enjoyed the other half though :-)
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
It’s all about the Weights
I’m feeling better today. I won’t say there isn’t a pit of fear in my stomach about my hubby’s work situation. It occupies a great deal of my thought, as it does his. But there is very little I can do about it. And eating pizza won’t help.
Yesterday was better. Yes, I did have most of a piece of pizza for lunch (with a salad). But I got over myself. Went to the gym after work for 30 minutes on the elliptical and some weight training (HARD weight training – good for the stress levels!).
Here’s what I did:
Db curls: 20/12 20/12 25/9
Dips (between weight benches) 25/15 30/15 35/15
21s 15/7 each way, twice
tri kickbacks 12.5/12 15/10
cable tri 75/12 80/10 85/8
cable bi 50/10 50/10 55/10
The weights took a little over a half an hour. I planned to finish with pull-ups, but my arms were toast! And my mind was at peace, at least for a little while.
Made a healthy dinner, with a sugar free pudding cup for dessert, and a faux beer consumed later while soaking in the tub. I also walked 30 min at work (moderate pace), a mile with my son, and 2 fast miles. Pretty good day all around!
I’m feeling better today. I won’t say there isn’t a pit of fear in my stomach about my hubby’s work situation. It occupies a great deal of my thought, as it does his. But there is very little I can do about it. And eating pizza won’t help.
Yesterday was better. Yes, I did have most of a piece of pizza for lunch (with a salad). But I got over myself. Went to the gym after work for 30 minutes on the elliptical and some weight training (HARD weight training – good for the stress levels!).
Here’s what I did:
Db curls: 20/12 20/12 25/9
Dips (between weight benches) 25/15 30/15 35/15
21s 15/7 each way, twice
tri kickbacks 12.5/12 15/10
cable tri 75/12 80/10 85/8
cable bi 50/10 50/10 55/10
The weights took a little over a half an hour. I planned to finish with pull-ups, but my arms were toast! And my mind was at peace, at least for a little while.
Made a healthy dinner, with a sugar free pudding cup for dessert, and a faux beer consumed later while soaking in the tub. I also walked 30 min at work (moderate pace), a mile with my son, and 2 fast miles. Pretty good day all around!
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
STRESS!!!!!
That was my day yesterday. Hubby still hasn't found a job. He was offered one yesterday, but it was 3 hours away. We figured after gas & a hotel room for the week, there would be just enough left to buy groceries. And our life would be miserable, and he couldn't look for anything closer.
He has never been out of work this long. Where are all those jobs that got created? Not here, that's for damn sure.
And my training partner is sick, and I cannot bench press with my husband. I tired last night - I was so out of it - it was pitiful. Ugh.
That was my day yesterday. Hubby still hasn't found a job. He was offered one yesterday, but it was 3 hours away. We figured after gas & a hotel room for the week, there would be just enough left to buy groceries. And our life would be miserable, and he couldn't look for anything closer.
He has never been out of work this long. Where are all those jobs that got created? Not here, that's for damn sure.
And my training partner is sick, and I cannot bench press with my husband. I tired last night - I was so out of it - it was pitiful. Ugh.
Friday, October 22, 2004
Oh Yeah Baby!
I'm a big loser! I'm a big loser!!!! :-) Down 2.5 pounds this week to 151 - am all-time low since I started this journey 3 years ago! I hit 152 once in May, but other than that, I've been stuck between 153 and 155 since March. I know last week was "water retention week", but all that tells me is that I had lost a little that prior week, and then lost again this week! Yes!!!!!!! I feel very good going into the weekend!
Yesterday I did 17 HARD minutes on the elliptical, lifted weights (biceps, triceps, shoulders) and then after dinner fast walked 2 miles then walked another mile with my son.
I'm a big loser! I'm a big loser!!!! :-) Down 2.5 pounds this week to 151 - am all-time low since I started this journey 3 years ago! I hit 152 once in May, but other than that, I've been stuck between 153 and 155 since March. I know last week was "water retention week", but all that tells me is that I had lost a little that prior week, and then lost again this week! Yes!!!!!!! I feel very good going into the weekend!
Yesterday I did 17 HARD minutes on the elliptical, lifted weights (biceps, triceps, shoulders) and then after dinner fast walked 2 miles then walked another mile with my son.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
The Difference Between Goals and Dreams
Here’s my profound thought of the day (not that I have one every day you understand): The difference between a goal and a dream is that you work toward a goal. I dream about winning the lottery, but it can hardly be considered a goal. For one, I have only so much control over it. But completing a triathlon was a goal for me, I trained for it, and I did it. Lately, weight loss has felt more like a dream than a goal. I’d love for it to happen, but my overall eating hasn’t gotten me closer to achieving it.
After last weekend, there seems to be a subtle shift in both my thinking and my actions. The little things I’m NOT doing (cruising by a co-worker's desk for a piece of candy, eating something because the last thing I ate filled me up but didn’t fill my “enjoyment”) are adding up to help me feel not so out of control. And that’s nice.
BTW, water aerobics was fun. Not nirvana, but fun. On a scale of 1 to 10 (1 being sitting on the sofa, 10 being running from an axe murderer), I usually try to work out between a 7 and an 8. I give water aerobics a 6.5 (sometimes down to 6, sometimes up to 7). I will probably do it again.
Here’s my profound thought of the day (not that I have one every day you understand): The difference between a goal and a dream is that you work toward a goal. I dream about winning the lottery, but it can hardly be considered a goal. For one, I have only so much control over it. But completing a triathlon was a goal for me, I trained for it, and I did it. Lately, weight loss has felt more like a dream than a goal. I’d love for it to happen, but my overall eating hasn’t gotten me closer to achieving it.
After last weekend, there seems to be a subtle shift in both my thinking and my actions. The little things I’m NOT doing (cruising by a co-worker's desk for a piece of candy, eating something because the last thing I ate filled me up but didn’t fill my “enjoyment”) are adding up to help me feel not so out of control. And that’s nice.
BTW, water aerobics was fun. Not nirvana, but fun. On a scale of 1 to 10 (1 being sitting on the sofa, 10 being running from an axe murderer), I usually try to work out between a 7 and an 8. I give water aerobics a 6.5 (sometimes down to 6, sometimes up to 7). I will probably do it again.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Fitness Malaise
I’m bored with my workout routine. Not the weights. Never the weights. I love me some weight training! But cardio is another story. I like the feel of my body working hard and the “high” I get from it, and the calorie burning thing is also nice. But when it comes to cardio, I suffer from “short attention span theater.”
I like an activity for a while, but can’t get “into” it long enough to get really good. Lap swimming is fine, riding my bike is nice (I don’t get to do it as much as I would like!), running has become dullsville, and my recent attempts at rekindling my former love affair with step class have fallen a little short. What’s a girl to do?
Tonight I am going to deep water aerobics, followed by “body pump” – also in the deep water. 75 minutes of what I am assured is a very good workout. Water aerobics gives me visions of matrons in those horrid plastic swim caps with the flowers from the 70’s, but I am going to ignore my own preconceived notion and step into the water-filled box. I’ll keep you posted.
Yesterday:
Exercise: Semper Gumby. I had to pick up the boy and take him to tutoring, so I didn’t get to do anything until a little after 8 when I had finished cleaning the kitchen. I elected to take a walk. A fast walk. I walked for 50 minutes. It felt wonderful! I could have walked for hours, but I had to read to my son and tuck him in. I may have found a new evening routine!
Food: Also very good. I’m doing the kashi cereal and light soy milk thing for breakfast. Snacks are a string cheese with veggies in the morning, and a string cheese with a piece of fruit in the afternoon. Lunches are boca spicy chik patty on whole wheat with more veggies at lunch. Hot veggies – I’m off salads for a while. Dinner last night was lean ground beef made into Salisbury steak type deals, sautéed and I made a little gravy. Mashed “faux-tay-toes” (a mix of mashed potatoes and mashed cauliflower) and creamed spinach. I use a little each of evoo (extra virgin olive oil) and butter, and use skim buttermilk – it comes out nice & thick with a good flavor without adding any extra fat. I ate small-ish portions, cleaned the kitchen, and then went for my walk. So I think I did good.
I saw a box of pizza rolls in the freezer – part of me said “you’ve been good. Why don’t you have some pizza rolls and a beer for a treat? You deserve it!” I told her to blow it out her butt.
I’m bored with my workout routine. Not the weights. Never the weights. I love me some weight training! But cardio is another story. I like the feel of my body working hard and the “high” I get from it, and the calorie burning thing is also nice. But when it comes to cardio, I suffer from “short attention span theater.”
I like an activity for a while, but can’t get “into” it long enough to get really good. Lap swimming is fine, riding my bike is nice (I don’t get to do it as much as I would like!), running has become dullsville, and my recent attempts at rekindling my former love affair with step class have fallen a little short. What’s a girl to do?
Tonight I am going to deep water aerobics, followed by “body pump” – also in the deep water. 75 minutes of what I am assured is a very good workout. Water aerobics gives me visions of matrons in those horrid plastic swim caps with the flowers from the 70’s, but I am going to ignore my own preconceived notion and step into the water-filled box. I’ll keep you posted.
Yesterday:
Exercise: Semper Gumby. I had to pick up the boy and take him to tutoring, so I didn’t get to do anything until a little after 8 when I had finished cleaning the kitchen. I elected to take a walk. A fast walk. I walked for 50 minutes. It felt wonderful! I could have walked for hours, but I had to read to my son and tuck him in. I may have found a new evening routine!
Food: Also very good. I’m doing the kashi cereal and light soy milk thing for breakfast. Snacks are a string cheese with veggies in the morning, and a string cheese with a piece of fruit in the afternoon. Lunches are boca spicy chik patty on whole wheat with more veggies at lunch. Hot veggies – I’m off salads for a while. Dinner last night was lean ground beef made into Salisbury steak type deals, sautéed and I made a little gravy. Mashed “faux-tay-toes” (a mix of mashed potatoes and mashed cauliflower) and creamed spinach. I use a little each of evoo (extra virgin olive oil) and butter, and use skim buttermilk – it comes out nice & thick with a good flavor without adding any extra fat. I ate small-ish portions, cleaned the kitchen, and then went for my walk. So I think I did good.
I saw a box of pizza rolls in the freezer – part of me said “you’ve been good. Why don’t you have some pizza rolls and a beer for a treat? You deserve it!” I told her to blow it out her butt.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Insert Snappy Title Here
Where do I begin?
Food: Still pretty darn good! I had some baked taco chips with salsa and a faux beer when I got home from the gym, but otherwise did excellent yesterday. I portioned out the salsa & stopped with the chips when I ran out!
Exercise: Not as much as I would like. S wasn’t back from Texas (she went to Austin to ride with Lance), so I didn’t do any weight training last night. We had a sub in step. I couldn’t get into it. Maybe my love affair with step is firmly in the past. Today I am going for a walk here at work (which I do nearly every day for 30 minutes) and either a walk or a jog this evening. We’ll see how I feel.
How I feel: Lousy. It’s not TOM I despise so much, it’s the cramps. I am drinking a cup of sugar free cocoa and feeling sorry for myself as I wait for the 800 mg Motrin to kick in.
Husband’s job: He’s doing a 1 day job today. There are many things I appreciate about him having his own small business. The income uncertainty is not one of them. I wish we could live on just my income, but we aren’t there yet. We’ll see what happens.
Son’s school: In a nutshell: The school has always had 1 pre-school and 1 elementary class. This year, the lady who owns/runs the school “M” expanded the pre-school to 2 classes. Fine, but she also increased the elementary class size 50% with the same space. I think the class is too crowded, and I’m not too sure about the new teacher either to be honest. The fact that she hadn’t read my son’s file and didn’t know he had been diagnosed with a learning disability?!?! WTF!??! For that we’re paying over $700 a month? (Okay, my mom pays most – we just aren’t that well off). I have spoken with some other parents. One other boy won’t be back next year (he’s been there 4 years also) and another mom is also concerned. She is asking M to set up a meeting with some of the parents. We’ll see what happens. But I may be in the market for a new school for my son.
Workout envy: Have you people checked out Lynne’s site? She is doing the things I dream of doing. Maybe when my kid is in college! In the interim, I’ll keep jogging, biking, swimming, stepping, lifting, and whatever else I can think of that is cheap and convenient to take care of the old body.
Where do I begin?
Food: Still pretty darn good! I had some baked taco chips with salsa and a faux beer when I got home from the gym, but otherwise did excellent yesterday. I portioned out the salsa & stopped with the chips when I ran out!
Exercise: Not as much as I would like. S wasn’t back from Texas (she went to Austin to ride with Lance), so I didn’t do any weight training last night. We had a sub in step. I couldn’t get into it. Maybe my love affair with step is firmly in the past. Today I am going for a walk here at work (which I do nearly every day for 30 minutes) and either a walk or a jog this evening. We’ll see how I feel.
How I feel: Lousy. It’s not TOM I despise so much, it’s the cramps. I am drinking a cup of sugar free cocoa and feeling sorry for myself as I wait for the 800 mg Motrin to kick in.
Husband’s job: He’s doing a 1 day job today. There are many things I appreciate about him having his own small business. The income uncertainty is not one of them. I wish we could live on just my income, but we aren’t there yet. We’ll see what happens.
Son’s school: In a nutshell: The school has always had 1 pre-school and 1 elementary class. This year, the lady who owns/runs the school “M” expanded the pre-school to 2 classes. Fine, but she also increased the elementary class size 50% with the same space. I think the class is too crowded, and I’m not too sure about the new teacher either to be honest. The fact that she hadn’t read my son’s file and didn’t know he had been diagnosed with a learning disability?!?! WTF!??! For that we’re paying over $700 a month? (Okay, my mom pays most – we just aren’t that well off). I have spoken with some other parents. One other boy won’t be back next year (he’s been there 4 years also) and another mom is also concerned. She is asking M to set up a meeting with some of the parents. We’ll see what happens. But I may be in the market for a new school for my son.
Workout envy: Have you people checked out Lynne’s site? She is doing the things I dream of doing. Maybe when my kid is in college! In the interim, I’ll keep jogging, biking, swimming, stepping, lifting, and whatever else I can think of that is cheap and convenient to take care of the old body.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Much Much Better
This weekend was world’s away from what my weekends have been like lately. It was great for a number of reasons:
1) I took Friday off to run errands and get a head start on the cleaning. I can’t do this every Friday, but I can plan an easy meal (or eat out), run a couple of errands and have that out of the way.
2) I did my grocery shopping on Saturday. I front loaded “chores” and saved Sunday as a day for me. The store was dead at 9 am just like it is on Sunday morning, and this made Sunday less busy. And I had food for the weekend :-)
3) I did housework on Saturday, and took help when it was offered. Hubby cleaned the bathrooms while I was doing the shopping. That and the vacuuming helped a lot.
4) I had time to do stuff I wanted! I made myself a vintage-style apron! I mended the pile of clothes that had been dragging me down. I made home-made wheat rolls with my son. We made flan just because he wanted to. I did more housework on Sunday (like cleaning up the pile of junk in the corner of the dining room), but because I wanted to do it, I didn’t mind.
I don’t know if it was because I was finally able to relax, or my good eating helped me to relax, but my eating was really good this weekend. I didn’t get in as much exercise as I would have liked, but hey – 2 rest days instead of 1 isn’t a huge deal. For the first time in a long time I feel that my weekend eating didn’t hinder my weight loss efforts! Big smiley face for me for that!
This weekend was world’s away from what my weekends have been like lately. It was great for a number of reasons:
1) I took Friday off to run errands and get a head start on the cleaning. I can’t do this every Friday, but I can plan an easy meal (or eat out), run a couple of errands and have that out of the way.
2) I did my grocery shopping on Saturday. I front loaded “chores” and saved Sunday as a day for me. The store was dead at 9 am just like it is on Sunday morning, and this made Sunday less busy. And I had food for the weekend :-)
3) I did housework on Saturday, and took help when it was offered. Hubby cleaned the bathrooms while I was doing the shopping. That and the vacuuming helped a lot.
4) I had time to do stuff I wanted! I made myself a vintage-style apron! I mended the pile of clothes that had been dragging me down. I made home-made wheat rolls with my son. We made flan just because he wanted to. I did more housework on Sunday (like cleaning up the pile of junk in the corner of the dining room), but because I wanted to do it, I didn’t mind.
I don’t know if it was because I was finally able to relax, or my good eating helped me to relax, but my eating was really good this weekend. I didn’t get in as much exercise as I would have liked, but hey – 2 rest days instead of 1 isn’t a huge deal. For the first time in a long time I feel that my weekend eating didn’t hinder my weight loss efforts! Big smiley face for me for that!
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Master of Maintenance and Other Random Thoughts
I used the elliptical for 30 minutes for 320 calories. I went home and the combination of stress (son’s school situation) and PMS drove me to eat an ice cream sandwich (270 calories). Boy I’m glad I finished that workout!
I hate PMS. In addition to the ice cream, I had a bag of Wow Doritos (120 cal) and a granola bar (110 cal). Other than that, my eating was very good.
We pay a lot of money to have my son in a private school. I have liked the low student to teacher ratio (never more than 12 students per class) and the fact that his teachers spent a lot of time with him. This is very important because he has difficulty with reading due to a learning disability. Well, this year the woman in charge has decided to begin expanding the school. There are 17 students in his class and the teacher had no fricking clue he even had a learning disability. She kept saying he wasn’t “working up to his potential.” Go read his damn file before you hand me that crap. Ugh.
Last year after vacation/beginning of the school year I gained 10 pounds. This year I have gained 3 and it is already gone. That is a yay. The not-so-yay is the fact that I have been at my current weight for nearly 18 months. I’m glad I know what I need to do to maintain and how to eat, but I’d really like to lose a little more weight. Ugh.
I am taking tomorrow off. Normal eating and a spinning class. Saturday is a run, yoga, and I dunno food plan. I’ll keep you posted.
I used the elliptical for 30 minutes for 320 calories. I went home and the combination of stress (son’s school situation) and PMS drove me to eat an ice cream sandwich (270 calories). Boy I’m glad I finished that workout!
I hate PMS. In addition to the ice cream, I had a bag of Wow Doritos (120 cal) and a granola bar (110 cal). Other than that, my eating was very good.
We pay a lot of money to have my son in a private school. I have liked the low student to teacher ratio (never more than 12 students per class) and the fact that his teachers spent a lot of time with him. This is very important because he has difficulty with reading due to a learning disability. Well, this year the woman in charge has decided to begin expanding the school. There are 17 students in his class and the teacher had no fricking clue he even had a learning disability. She kept saying he wasn’t “working up to his potential.” Go read his damn file before you hand me that crap. Ugh.
Last year after vacation/beginning of the school year I gained 10 pounds. This year I have gained 3 and it is already gone. That is a yay. The not-so-yay is the fact that I have been at my current weight for nearly 18 months. I’m glad I know what I need to do to maintain and how to eat, but I’d really like to lose a little more weight. Ugh.
I am taking tomorrow off. Normal eating and a spinning class. Saturday is a run, yoga, and I dunno food plan. I’ll keep you posted.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
T-I-R-E-D spells tired.
I’m beat! I took a 40 minute walk during lunch yesterday. Got home, helped my son with homework, then did another 40 minute walk. Fixed supper, ate, took a bath, and helped with more homework. Read him a chapter of Dr. Doolittle and called it a night. I was in bed by 9:30, yet could not manage to drag my carcass out of bed this morning to run.
Tonight I am taking son to tkd, so I will do something at they gym. I will get a workout in, just not a run. I’m thinking elliptical.
Food yesterday was very good:
B: Smoothie (1 c berries, about 1T flax oil, 1 T ground flax seed, and 2 scoops protein)
S: 1 deviled egg and raw veggies
L: leftover “fried” rice (homemade), a cup of hot & sour soup, and a side salad
S: half a grapefruit and a deviled egg
S2: granola bar (110 calories)
D: lean pork chop with a bit of gravy, baked butternut squash, braised cabbage, and an O’Doul’s faux beer
Friday I may meet my husband out for lunch, but other than that, normal day. Saturday some type of restricted diet with a treat that night while watching tv, then planned day Sunday. I eat less if I eat out at lunch (and its cheaper). We’ll see.
I’m beat! I took a 40 minute walk during lunch yesterday. Got home, helped my son with homework, then did another 40 minute walk. Fixed supper, ate, took a bath, and helped with more homework. Read him a chapter of Dr. Doolittle and called it a night. I was in bed by 9:30, yet could not manage to drag my carcass out of bed this morning to run.
Tonight I am taking son to tkd, so I will do something at they gym. I will get a workout in, just not a run. I’m thinking elliptical.
Food yesterday was very good:
B: Smoothie (1 c berries, about 1T flax oil, 1 T ground flax seed, and 2 scoops protein)
S: 1 deviled egg and raw veggies
L: leftover “fried” rice (homemade), a cup of hot & sour soup, and a side salad
S: half a grapefruit and a deviled egg
S2: granola bar (110 calories)
D: lean pork chop with a bit of gravy, baked butternut squash, braised cabbage, and an O’Doul’s faux beer
Friday I may meet my husband out for lunch, but other than that, normal day. Saturday some type of restricted diet with a treat that night while watching tv, then planned day Sunday. I eat less if I eat out at lunch (and its cheaper). We’ll see.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Doing Battle with my Inner Slug
Some people have an inner child. I suffer an inner slug. She has bleached blond hair, is 40 pounds overweight, and drinks PBR. She’s been trying for years to escape and take over around here. She’s so overbearing that until recently I didn’t even know there was an inner athlete cohabitating with her.
Yesterday was pretty good. Cooked a nice (and healthy!) dinner for the family & hit the gym for Monday night step and weight lifting. We worked back and chest pretty hard, thank you very much.
The problem is, after working out from 6:30 to 8:30 Monday evening, it is pretty tough to get up at 5 to run Tuesday morning. I didn’t run this morning. I did take a 40 minute walk at work, and I will take a second walk this evening. I think I will move my runs to Wednesday and Thursday mornings. They are short enough that back to back is fine. Then I can do weights and step again on Thursday. Wednesday if I take the boy to tae kwon do I can do yoga, swim, or some time on a machine. That way I won’t be tired out for my Thursday run. That just means I need to figure out something to do Tuesdays – an afternoon bike ride or something.
I feel like the stress is beginning to let up. I hope that feeling continues.
Some people have an inner child. I suffer an inner slug. She has bleached blond hair, is 40 pounds overweight, and drinks PBR. She’s been trying for years to escape and take over around here. She’s so overbearing that until recently I didn’t even know there was an inner athlete cohabitating with her.
Yesterday was pretty good. Cooked a nice (and healthy!) dinner for the family & hit the gym for Monday night step and weight lifting. We worked back and chest pretty hard, thank you very much.
The problem is, after working out from 6:30 to 8:30 Monday evening, it is pretty tough to get up at 5 to run Tuesday morning. I didn’t run this morning. I did take a 40 minute walk at work, and I will take a second walk this evening. I think I will move my runs to Wednesday and Thursday mornings. They are short enough that back to back is fine. Then I can do weights and step again on Thursday. Wednesday if I take the boy to tae kwon do I can do yoga, swim, or some time on a machine. That way I won’t be tired out for my Thursday run. That just means I need to figure out something to do Tuesdays – an afternoon bike ride or something.
I feel like the stress is beginning to let up. I hope that feeling continues.
Monday, October 11, 2004
Thursday, October 07, 2004
The Lady or the Tiger
The past couple of days have been rough. Do you ever feel depressed, and then feel guilty for feeling depressed because you have no real reason? I mean, yah, my husband doesn’t have a job Monday. That’s part of the stress of having your own business. We have money in the bank to tide us over for a little bit until something comes in. But I’ve never gotten used to it.
Anyway, I feel guilty for feeling depressed. I mean, we have our health, a house, blah blah. I feel like I shouldn’t feel this way, which then makes it worse. Yesterday, I just gave in. I denied myself nothing. I had a breakfast burrito from Sonic, chocolate off a co-worker’s desk, a bag of Wow Doritos (A small snack bag), Japanese for dinner, and beer after. And today I feel done with that.
I love to eat. I love food. I love the taste of hot cheese dip, washed down with an ice cold beer. But I hate what it does to my body. I hate how it makes me feel like less of a person after. It’s just some food. Why does it have so much power over me?
I didn’t work out last night. I didn’t run this morning. Don’t worry – I walked twice yesterday and today is weights and step class. But still. I feel like I am letting myself down. Days I overeat I look back on and feel that they are wasted. I hate that.
The past couple of days have been rough. Do you ever feel depressed, and then feel guilty for feeling depressed because you have no real reason? I mean, yah, my husband doesn’t have a job Monday. That’s part of the stress of having your own business. We have money in the bank to tide us over for a little bit until something comes in. But I’ve never gotten used to it.
Anyway, I feel guilty for feeling depressed. I mean, we have our health, a house, blah blah. I feel like I shouldn’t feel this way, which then makes it worse. Yesterday, I just gave in. I denied myself nothing. I had a breakfast burrito from Sonic, chocolate off a co-worker’s desk, a bag of Wow Doritos (A small snack bag), Japanese for dinner, and beer after. And today I feel done with that.
I love to eat. I love food. I love the taste of hot cheese dip, washed down with an ice cold beer. But I hate what it does to my body. I hate how it makes me feel like less of a person after. It’s just some food. Why does it have so much power over me?
I didn’t work out last night. I didn’t run this morning. Don’t worry – I walked twice yesterday and today is weights and step class. But still. I feel like I am letting myself down. Days I overeat I look back on and feel that they are wasted. I hate that.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
I worked out last night, do I look like a fitness model yet?
I wish my life were more like a merry-go-round, as opposed to a roller coaster. I went out with my sister for lunch, and had a gyro & salad & unsweet tea. Yay me. Ate great all day yesterday. Yay me.
Went shopping for something to wear to my reunion in the afternoon. Nothing fit. I bet I would have had better luck in the maternity department. I bought a skirt, but I am very dissatisfied. The Kohl’s dressing room is the bane of my existence. Boo.
Went home, had a light dinner & hit the gym. Step class followed by chest, back, and triceps. I benched 135. I rule. Went home & had a little more dinner (a WW meat loaf recipe & green beans), read to my son, and hit the sack. Got up this morning for a 2 mile run. Not the fastest in the world, but I did it.
Today I am hungry! I had my snack, then a bag of Wow Doritos (120 calories – not bad). I have good food packed, a good dinner (already cooked!), and I am going to keep mushing on.
Here’s the thing. Some overweight people eat whatever they want and obsess about what they wish they could wear. Some thin women wear great clothes and fantasize about food. I feel I have the worst of both worlds. I watch what I eat (during the week), work out like a fiend, and still can’t wear the clothes I want. Here’s the site that got me thinking about that particular subject.
But I could have those 25 pounds I’ve lost back, and a holding action is better than that. I am very hopeful that I will feel less overwhelmed when hubby is back from this out of town job - this Friday! Woo Hoo! See, up and down! A roller coaster.
I wish my life were more like a merry-go-round, as opposed to a roller coaster. I went out with my sister for lunch, and had a gyro & salad & unsweet tea. Yay me. Ate great all day yesterday. Yay me.
Went shopping for something to wear to my reunion in the afternoon. Nothing fit. I bet I would have had better luck in the maternity department. I bought a skirt, but I am very dissatisfied. The Kohl’s dressing room is the bane of my existence. Boo.
Went home, had a light dinner & hit the gym. Step class followed by chest, back, and triceps. I benched 135. I rule. Went home & had a little more dinner (a WW meat loaf recipe & green beans), read to my son, and hit the sack. Got up this morning for a 2 mile run. Not the fastest in the world, but I did it.
Today I am hungry! I had my snack, then a bag of Wow Doritos (120 calories – not bad). I have good food packed, a good dinner (already cooked!), and I am going to keep mushing on.
Here’s the thing. Some overweight people eat whatever they want and obsess about what they wish they could wear. Some thin women wear great clothes and fantasize about food. I feel I have the worst of both worlds. I watch what I eat (during the week), work out like a fiend, and still can’t wear the clothes I want. Here’s the site that got me thinking about that particular subject.
But I could have those 25 pounds I’ve lost back, and a holding action is better than that. I am very hopeful that I will feel less overwhelmed when hubby is back from this out of town job - this Friday! Woo Hoo! See, up and down! A roller coaster.
Monday, October 04, 2004
You Can Learn a Lot Handing out Donughts
So, our annual Employee Giving Campaign kicked off today, encouraging people to give to various charities (you pick your own of course!). To make people aware, we were handing out donughts and coffee as people came in the building this morning.
First of all, I work about 15 miles from Krispy Kreme HQ, so that is what we were handing out. And also, I realize that where I work (a call center) is not exactly a cross section of America - the vast majority of jobs here take "sedentary" to new heights.
It was very interesting to see what sort of people took donughts, compared with the ones that walked by after saying "No thanks." I think I wanna be in the "no thanks" group. While I don't believe Krispy Kreme is the root of all evil, I am grateful I don't really like them because they are a prime example of all that is wrong with food choices in America.
A fabulous weekend - loads of hiking, and a short run. House in awesome shape with steam-cleaned rugs. Two decadent restaurant meals consumed, along with 12 beers (over the course of the weekend). I'm not sure even 4.5 hours of hiking (some pretty strenuous) plus a 2 mile run offset lasagna one night and hush puppies and artichoke dip (yes, that was my dinner) the next. Groan. I deserve a stomach ache.
I am going to step class and lift weights tonight. Why must my 4 days of pristine eating merely offset my weekends????
On the plus side, this is hubby's last week out of town! Now, he has no work lined up for next week (the price of having his own business), but I am just grateful this is coming to an end. One cause of stress eating eliminated.
Also on the bright side: our big August vacation is always immediately followed by the boy going back to school. Last year I gained 10 pounds after these 2 events occurred and it took months to get it off. This year, I gained 3 pounds and they are now gone. I am 1.5 pounds away from my lowest weight of the past 3.5 years.
The fat flush got nearly 2 pounds gone - this past week was a holding action, and now for another push. I will not give up.
So, our annual Employee Giving Campaign kicked off today, encouraging people to give to various charities (you pick your own of course!). To make people aware, we were handing out donughts and coffee as people came in the building this morning.
First of all, I work about 15 miles from Krispy Kreme HQ, so that is what we were handing out. And also, I realize that where I work (a call center) is not exactly a cross section of America - the vast majority of jobs here take "sedentary" to new heights.
It was very interesting to see what sort of people took donughts, compared with the ones that walked by after saying "No thanks." I think I wanna be in the "no thanks" group. While I don't believe Krispy Kreme is the root of all evil, I am grateful I don't really like them because they are a prime example of all that is wrong with food choices in America.
A fabulous weekend - loads of hiking, and a short run. House in awesome shape with steam-cleaned rugs. Two decadent restaurant meals consumed, along with 12 beers (over the course of the weekend). I'm not sure even 4.5 hours of hiking (some pretty strenuous) plus a 2 mile run offset lasagna one night and hush puppies and artichoke dip (yes, that was my dinner) the next. Groan. I deserve a stomach ache.
I am going to step class and lift weights tonight. Why must my 4 days of pristine eating merely offset my weekends????
On the plus side, this is hubby's last week out of town! Now, he has no work lined up for next week (the price of having his own business), but I am just grateful this is coming to an end. One cause of stress eating eliminated.
Also on the bright side: our big August vacation is always immediately followed by the boy going back to school. Last year I gained 10 pounds after these 2 events occurred and it took months to get it off. This year, I gained 3 pounds and they are now gone. I am 1.5 pounds away from my lowest weight of the past 3.5 years.
The fat flush got nearly 2 pounds gone - this past week was a holding action, and now for another push. I will not give up.
Friday, October 01, 2004
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