I know what I’m having for lunches next week!
I made a yum-o dinner last night! It’s from the “Eating for Life” cookbook. The recipe for shrimp scampi was fabulous! I still have this book out from the library - I will buy it eventually. Anyway, I will make that for lunches next week.
Food yesterday was fine. I hit the gym AND got up and walked this morning. My mood is lifting already.
Work is still very busy. My new boss seems to think I’m doing a good job. He pushes people to push themselves, if that makes any sense. I like it.
Monday, January 30, 2006
If you gonna talk the talk, at least try to walk the walk
A lot of different thoughts, so I’m just gonna number them & call it a post.
1. I am obviously a master of maintenance, coming in again last week at 155.5. Given this weekend, I hope I maintain again this week. Sigh. More on that later.
2. I am glad I never gave up on cottage cheese. It’s not that I like it or anything, but it’s such a great source of protein and is versatile. If I put a half cup with a half cup of mixed berries, cinnamon, and a packet of splenda it’s not bad. I made “pancakes” this morning – 3 egg whites, ½ c cottage cheese, ½ c oats, a dash each of cinnamon and vanilla, and a packet of splenda. Blend to make your batter & cook em up. Yum-o!
3. Hub & I talked Saturday. So much has been put on my shoulders – I told him how let down I felt when he didn’t pick up the boy so I could go to the gym. I’ve been working full time at a new job (which is much more demanding), doing boy duty, the shopping & cooking, and at least half the cleaning. How is that fair? He has agreed to take on more responsibility at home. Until the next time we have to have this conversation. Oh well, it’ll help for a while.
4. I am fat & I’m not happy about it. My body looks yucky.
5. We have to keep the trigger foods (beer, pretzels, crackers) out of the house for a while – with my stress levels as high as they are, it is waaaaay too easy to fall into a vat of food. Hub agreed.
6. We went on a date! We had an inexpensive but very good dinner at a Mediterranean deli, then hit a used book store, then B&N for a coffee & hub bought a book there. We got 3 movies & a CD at the used book store, and I scored 7 Star Trek books. Some women read romance novels – I read ST in much the same way – it’s a mindless diversion.
7. Other than the fact that I consumed too many calories, it was a good weekend. I’m trying to forgive myself but stay firm on making this a priority. The stress is tough, but I have to deal with it in a more productive way.
A lot of different thoughts, so I’m just gonna number them & call it a post.
1. I am obviously a master of maintenance, coming in again last week at 155.5. Given this weekend, I hope I maintain again this week. Sigh. More on that later.
2. I am glad I never gave up on cottage cheese. It’s not that I like it or anything, but it’s such a great source of protein and is versatile. If I put a half cup with a half cup of mixed berries, cinnamon, and a packet of splenda it’s not bad. I made “pancakes” this morning – 3 egg whites, ½ c cottage cheese, ½ c oats, a dash each of cinnamon and vanilla, and a packet of splenda. Blend to make your batter & cook em up. Yum-o!
3. Hub & I talked Saturday. So much has been put on my shoulders – I told him how let down I felt when he didn’t pick up the boy so I could go to the gym. I’ve been working full time at a new job (which is much more demanding), doing boy duty, the shopping & cooking, and at least half the cleaning. How is that fair? He has agreed to take on more responsibility at home. Until the next time we have to have this conversation. Oh well, it’ll help for a while.
4. I am fat & I’m not happy about it. My body looks yucky.
5. We have to keep the trigger foods (beer, pretzels, crackers) out of the house for a while – with my stress levels as high as they are, it is waaaaay too easy to fall into a vat of food. Hub agreed.
6. We went on a date! We had an inexpensive but very good dinner at a Mediterranean deli, then hit a used book store, then B&N for a coffee & hub bought a book there. We got 3 movies & a CD at the used book store, and I scored 7 Star Trek books. Some women read romance novels – I read ST in much the same way – it’s a mindless diversion.
7. Other than the fact that I consumed too many calories, it was a good weekend. I’m trying to forgive myself but stay firm on making this a priority. The stress is tough, but I have to deal with it in a more productive way.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
And the number one reason I don’t look like a fitness model…..
Yesterday morning, I asked my husband if he could pick up the boy so that I could go to the gym. No problem. He was helping a friend on a job, so his time was flexible. He gets there, and tells D he needs to leave in time to pick up the boy. I call after work – D wants him to work late and could I pick up the boy? Needless to say, I was super pissed off. He could easily have said “I’m sorry but I have to go” with no consequences – he was working yes, but doing a friend a favor by helping on this guy’s job.
I’m left feeling like I am always the bottom priority and any stranger that happens along is going to have their needs placed higher than mine. I’m getting teary just sitting here typing this – I’m so tired of feeling like I get exactly no support from my husband.
I could have salvaged a little something – I could have squeezed enough time to go do 20 minutes of HIIT on the treadmill. Instead I stopped by the grocery to pick up some bread to go with dinner. I guess I don’t have to tell you that I had 1.5 candy bars, plenty of that bread, and popcorn in addition to my healthy soup last night. And a couple of beers. I went to bed at 8, angry, depressed, and not even interested in looking at my husband.
So, let’s dissect this scenario for a minute. Yes, my husband acted like a total a$$ and was wrong. But I chose to react the way I did. That, coupled with a bad experience with an Amazon seller was enough to throw me over the top. I don’t handle a change in my plans well. So I reacted by eating Tokyo, and now feel remorseful and angry with myself this morning.
I mentioned briefly I was reading a book by Geneen Roth. For people with emotional eating issues, I highly recommend her books. Here are a couple of things she wrote I thought worth sharing. These quotes are from the book “When Food is Love.”
“Being able to move from apparent confidence to utter desolation in the time it takes a star to fall is one of the symptoms of being in an adult body and experiencing life through the shattered eggshell of childhood.”
“When you grow up believing that you are loved because of what you do, not who you are, your survival depends on doing the right thing. If you make one wrong move you believe you will die.”
“We eat the way we live. What we do with food, we do in our lives. Eating is a stage upon which we act out our beliefs about ourselves. As compulsive eaters, we use food to somatize our deepest fears, dreams, and convictions. Something is wrong when we find ourselves reeling into paroxysm of despair from eating a piece of garlic bread or three éclairs. Something is wrong when we feel we have to deprive ourselves of foods we love because we believe we would abuse them – or ourselves – if we allowed them in our lives. Something is wrong and we are using food to express it.”
So, to my question yesterday – if feeling healthy and exercising feels good, why don’t we do it? There is the answer. The part I struggle to figure out is how to change it.
I haven’t finished the book yet. I’m sure it will offer some insights, but overcome the behavior I must. Perhaps medication to level off those feelings, so I don’t go reeling into despair when I eat a candy bar or my husband lets me down will help. But to be healthy in body and spirit, I have to apply the understanding I have of what is at the heart of this behavior.
Yesterday morning, I asked my husband if he could pick up the boy so that I could go to the gym. No problem. He was helping a friend on a job, so his time was flexible. He gets there, and tells D he needs to leave in time to pick up the boy. I call after work – D wants him to work late and could I pick up the boy? Needless to say, I was super pissed off. He could easily have said “I’m sorry but I have to go” with no consequences – he was working yes, but doing a friend a favor by helping on this guy’s job.
I’m left feeling like I am always the bottom priority and any stranger that happens along is going to have their needs placed higher than mine. I’m getting teary just sitting here typing this – I’m so tired of feeling like I get exactly no support from my husband.
I could have salvaged a little something – I could have squeezed enough time to go do 20 minutes of HIIT on the treadmill. Instead I stopped by the grocery to pick up some bread to go with dinner. I guess I don’t have to tell you that I had 1.5 candy bars, plenty of that bread, and popcorn in addition to my healthy soup last night. And a couple of beers. I went to bed at 8, angry, depressed, and not even interested in looking at my husband.
So, let’s dissect this scenario for a minute. Yes, my husband acted like a total a$$ and was wrong. But I chose to react the way I did. That, coupled with a bad experience with an Amazon seller was enough to throw me over the top. I don’t handle a change in my plans well. So I reacted by eating Tokyo, and now feel remorseful and angry with myself this morning.
I mentioned briefly I was reading a book by Geneen Roth. For people with emotional eating issues, I highly recommend her books. Here are a couple of things she wrote I thought worth sharing. These quotes are from the book “When Food is Love.”
“Being able to move from apparent confidence to utter desolation in the time it takes a star to fall is one of the symptoms of being in an adult body and experiencing life through the shattered eggshell of childhood.”
“When you grow up believing that you are loved because of what you do, not who you are, your survival depends on doing the right thing. If you make one wrong move you believe you will die.”
“We eat the way we live. What we do with food, we do in our lives. Eating is a stage upon which we act out our beliefs about ourselves. As compulsive eaters, we use food to somatize our deepest fears, dreams, and convictions. Something is wrong when we find ourselves reeling into paroxysm of despair from eating a piece of garlic bread or three éclairs. Something is wrong when we feel we have to deprive ourselves of foods we love because we believe we would abuse them – or ourselves – if we allowed them in our lives. Something is wrong and we are using food to express it.”
So, to my question yesterday – if feeling healthy and exercising feels good, why don’t we do it? There is the answer. The part I struggle to figure out is how to change it.
I haven’t finished the book yet. I’m sure it will offer some insights, but overcome the behavior I must. Perhaps medication to level off those feelings, so I don’t go reeling into despair when I eat a candy bar or my husband lets me down will help. But to be healthy in body and spirit, I have to apply the understanding I have of what is at the heart of this behavior.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Hello hello hello.
Yesterday gets a B+. Food was good, although I had a NA beer and a sugar-free fudgecicle after dinner (100 calories total). Exercise was not quite as intense – I bailed on the gym and took advantage of the terrific weather to walk outside. I’ll hit the gym today.
I have nothing profound to say today. My MIL is over at my mom’s. She is applying for a job up in Va, which would be closer to the grandkids. We’ll see what happens. Hub’s work is up in the air again. He wasn’t getting enough hours with the company he was with – they were new & just didn’t have enough work coming in. Construction is just not stable employment.
I’d like to set some running goals – but for right now I know I just need to focus on getting back into a good routine and then I can work on adding to it. I did get up at 5:30 again, in spite of the fact that the alarm wasn’t set.
To recap, short term goals:
This week get up at 5:30. Next week get up at 5:15 and add an AM walk.
Drink 3 (32 oz) glasses of water at work daily.
Afternoon exercise.
100 calorie limit post dinner.
I know it isn’t the first time I’ve said it nor am I the only blogger to say it, but if doing the right things feels so good, why don’t we?
Yesterday gets a B+. Food was good, although I had a NA beer and a sugar-free fudgecicle after dinner (100 calories total). Exercise was not quite as intense – I bailed on the gym and took advantage of the terrific weather to walk outside. I’ll hit the gym today.
I have nothing profound to say today. My MIL is over at my mom’s. She is applying for a job up in Va, which would be closer to the grandkids. We’ll see what happens. Hub’s work is up in the air again. He wasn’t getting enough hours with the company he was with – they were new & just didn’t have enough work coming in. Construction is just not stable employment.
I’d like to set some running goals – but for right now I know I just need to focus on getting back into a good routine and then I can work on adding to it. I did get up at 5:30 again, in spite of the fact that the alarm wasn’t set.
To recap, short term goals:
This week get up at 5:30. Next week get up at 5:15 and add an AM walk.
Drink 3 (32 oz) glasses of water at work daily.
Afternoon exercise.
100 calorie limit post dinner.
I know it isn’t the first time I’ve said it nor am I the only blogger to say it, but if doing the right things feels so good, why don’t we?
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
(Drum roll please) THE PLAN!!!!!
I am baby stepping my way back to a better place. Driving up to Ohio Friday afternoon, I realized how long it had been since I felt just… happy. Enjoying the sunshine & music, looking forward to visiting dear friends. That reality check prompted me to make some changes and some plans.
1. I spoke with my doctor and after a very good discussion, she prescribed Welbutrin to help me through some of the temporary stress (new job, MIL). She also prescribed making the gym a priority and date nights with my husband. You see why I love my doctor!
2. Building my base back up. This week I am getting up at 5:30 and using those 15 minutes to catch up on stuff around the house. I am getting in my water during the day, and going to the gym after work. Next week I will add in an AM walk. Food is planned and prepped for the week.
We had a nice visit with our friends, but they aren’t exactly the healthiest of eaters. Between road food & their house, not a single vegetable was consumed other than the lettuce on my Wendy’s chicken sandwich. Unless you think mashed potatoes (made with 3 sticks of butter!) should count! Uh, no.
Anyway, working hard to re-join the human race. I will keep posting.
Also reading a very good book "When Food is Love" by Geneen Roth. That's the book I would have written if I were articulate.
I am baby stepping my way back to a better place. Driving up to Ohio Friday afternoon, I realized how long it had been since I felt just… happy. Enjoying the sunshine & music, looking forward to visiting dear friends. That reality check prompted me to make some changes and some plans.
1. I spoke with my doctor and after a very good discussion, she prescribed Welbutrin to help me through some of the temporary stress (new job, MIL). She also prescribed making the gym a priority and date nights with my husband. You see why I love my doctor!
2. Building my base back up. This week I am getting up at 5:30 and using those 15 minutes to catch up on stuff around the house. I am getting in my water during the day, and going to the gym after work. Next week I will add in an AM walk. Food is planned and prepped for the week.
We had a nice visit with our friends, but they aren’t exactly the healthiest of eaters. Between road food & their house, not a single vegetable was consumed other than the lettuce on my Wendy’s chicken sandwich. Unless you think mashed potatoes (made with 3 sticks of butter!) should count! Uh, no.
Anyway, working hard to re-join the human race. I will keep posting.
Also reading a very good book "When Food is Love" by Geneen Roth. That's the book I would have written if I were articulate.
Friday, January 20, 2006
The tale of the scale
I don't believe I lost 3.5 pounds this week any more than I think I gained 3 the week before. I might as well confess that I weight 155.5 or no one will be able to follow the bouncing ball - even me.
I did okay last night - I did have 2 beers but didn't follow through with any munchies thankfully. Exercise is still spotty, but that will change after I get back from Ohio Sunday. I have some healthy meals planned for next week and its back to BFL.
This week has been tough, but I think a weekend away will help to revive me & hubby both.
Have a great weekend!
I don't believe I lost 3.5 pounds this week any more than I think I gained 3 the week before. I might as well confess that I weight 155.5 or no one will be able to follow the bouncing ball - even me.
I did okay last night - I did have 2 beers but didn't follow through with any munchies thankfully. Exercise is still spotty, but that will change after I get back from Ohio Sunday. I have some healthy meals planned for next week and its back to BFL.
This week has been tough, but I think a weekend away will help to revive me & hubby both.
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, January 19, 2006
C is for Cookie
Recipe I wanted to share:
Chocolate oatmeal "cookies"
1/2 mashed banana
1 Tbsp peanut butter
1/3 c oatmeal
1 pkg diet swiss miss coccoa
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/2 scoop protein powder
Mix together. Form 6 cookies & bake 10 minutes at 300 degrees.
These were very good! They were a little dry. Things I will try:
Grind some of the oatmeal for a smoother texture.
Use 1 Tbsp coccoa powder and a packet of splenda instead of coccoa mix (cheaper)
Add a bit of applesauce if it’s still dry.
Foodwise, I’m still making good choices. I didn’t get to the gym yesterday – a walk was all that happened. I know I need more exercise, right now I’m just toast. I am FUD (fear, uncertainty, doubt) at work and FOG (fear, obligation, guilt) at home. (No, I didn’t make those up). One or the other is okay – both at once is tough. Work isn’t bad – just new. Even good stress is still stress. Sigh. But things are better than they were.
I plan to return to the gym next week. In the interim I will walk & try not to eat Tokyo.
Recipe I wanted to share:
Chocolate oatmeal "cookies"
1/2 mashed banana
1 Tbsp peanut butter
1/3 c oatmeal
1 pkg diet swiss miss coccoa
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/2 scoop protein powder
Mix together. Form 6 cookies & bake 10 minutes at 300 degrees.
These were very good! They were a little dry. Things I will try:
Grind some of the oatmeal for a smoother texture.
Use 1 Tbsp coccoa powder and a packet of splenda instead of coccoa mix (cheaper)
Add a bit of applesauce if it’s still dry.
Foodwise, I’m still making good choices. I didn’t get to the gym yesterday – a walk was all that happened. I know I need more exercise, right now I’m just toast. I am FUD (fear, uncertainty, doubt) at work and FOG (fear, obligation, guilt) at home. (No, I didn’t make those up). One or the other is okay – both at once is tough. Work isn’t bad – just new. Even good stress is still stress. Sigh. But things are better than they were.
I plan to return to the gym next week. In the interim I will walk & try not to eat Tokyo.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Hey, thanks
Thanks for all the great comments. Bill's pancakes are on my "to try" list btw - they do sound good.
SIL called yesterday, basically to justify her position to MIL. My MIL realizes she needs help. I know she misses the grandkids, but right now that environment would not be very good for her and she knows it. Given that she plans to split her time between our house & my mom, it should be more tolerable as everyone will get a periodic break from one another.
No, I didn't get to the gym. I had to help unload the moving truck. Hub picked the boy up right after school so we would have his help too - it was an "all hands on deck" afternoon. I didn't bring my gym bag today either - I plan to take a walk. I think being outside for exercise will be more helpful given my mood.
Eating was okay yesterday. I had an O'Douls, a fudgecicle (suagr free), and a small serving of baked beans after dinner. But that's so much better than I've been doing lately that I consider it a victory.
I think we are still going to Ohio this weekend. Hub wants to. I do too, but I hate missing the gym. Not that I'm going much this week. But food & walking is a vast improvement.
Thanks for all the great comments. Bill's pancakes are on my "to try" list btw - they do sound good.
SIL called yesterday, basically to justify her position to MIL. My MIL realizes she needs help. I know she misses the grandkids, but right now that environment would not be very good for her and she knows it. Given that she plans to split her time between our house & my mom, it should be more tolerable as everyone will get a periodic break from one another.
No, I didn't get to the gym. I had to help unload the moving truck. Hub picked the boy up right after school so we would have his help too - it was an "all hands on deck" afternoon. I didn't bring my gym bag today either - I plan to take a walk. I think being outside for exercise will be more helpful given my mood.
Eating was okay yesterday. I had an O'Douls, a fudgecicle (suagr free), and a small serving of baked beans after dinner. But that's so much better than I've been doing lately that I consider it a victory.
I think we are still going to Ohio this weekend. Hub wants to. I do too, but I hate missing the gym. Not that I'm going much this week. But food & walking is a vast improvement.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Fiddle dee dee, tomorrow is another day – so let’s toast marshmallows while Atlanta burns
What can I say? Exercise is a distant memory, my caloric consumption closely resembles that of a 20 year old frat boy, and my weekend was everything I expected and so much more. Let’s just say my husband doesn’t want to see his SIL any time soon, which is fine because I’m not thrilled with his brother.
Where to start? See, MIL doesn’t rent her apartment, so once they fire her she automatically gets evicted. NC is a “right to work” state, which means people can quit or be fired with no notice and for no reason. Since the apartment was part of her “benefits package”, there ya go.
My MIL has some mental health issues. She has been “marginally” functional her whole life – holding down a job but never keeping her personal life together. Lately she has been depressed, suicidal, and not taking care of stuff. I think she had a breakdown to be honest. She managed in her job, but her apartment was a mess, her finances are a mess…
My BIL is one of those people that is reactive, high strung, and does before he thinks or talks. So he basically decides that MIL should move back to Maryland and in with him & his family, without talking to her, his wife, of any of us. SIL is angry because of the way MIL acted last time she lived with them and had no idea that MIL never even asked to move up there with them. So she is angry & resentful, BIL is a raging banshee, and my Mil first feels betrayed and violated by her employer, and then is robbed of her dignity & rights by her family.
SIL came down & told her she had no rights since she was “homeless” and they began dictating to her what she could do with her stuff. By the time I got her to tell them Sunday afternoon that she wanted to stay here it was too late – they had thrown out 2 storage units worth of her stuff, not to mention her apartment. She is a total packrat, probably has OCD and compulsively buys stuff so there was plenty that needed to be cleaned out, but imagine boxing up the contents of your home and throwing it in a dumpster. That’s what they did. My son came running to the front to tell us BIL & SIL threw out 15 boxes of books my mom promised MIL we’d hang onto for her. We had the kids in the dumpster trying to salvage the books. I shudder to think what irreplaceable items wound up in the trash. It was like watching a city being pillaged.
MIL is with us right now and will stay with my mom for a bit. I don’t know what will happen long run. I feel wrung out. I saw a number on the scale Friday that scared me, and frankly I only added to it this weekend. I have my gym bag packed. I have my menu planned. Not sure what else to do.
What can I say? Exercise is a distant memory, my caloric consumption closely resembles that of a 20 year old frat boy, and my weekend was everything I expected and so much more. Let’s just say my husband doesn’t want to see his SIL any time soon, which is fine because I’m not thrilled with his brother.
Where to start? See, MIL doesn’t rent her apartment, so once they fire her she automatically gets evicted. NC is a “right to work” state, which means people can quit or be fired with no notice and for no reason. Since the apartment was part of her “benefits package”, there ya go.
My MIL has some mental health issues. She has been “marginally” functional her whole life – holding down a job but never keeping her personal life together. Lately she has been depressed, suicidal, and not taking care of stuff. I think she had a breakdown to be honest. She managed in her job, but her apartment was a mess, her finances are a mess…
My BIL is one of those people that is reactive, high strung, and does before he thinks or talks. So he basically decides that MIL should move back to Maryland and in with him & his family, without talking to her, his wife, of any of us. SIL is angry because of the way MIL acted last time she lived with them and had no idea that MIL never even asked to move up there with them. So she is angry & resentful, BIL is a raging banshee, and my Mil first feels betrayed and violated by her employer, and then is robbed of her dignity & rights by her family.
SIL came down & told her she had no rights since she was “homeless” and they began dictating to her what she could do with her stuff. By the time I got her to tell them Sunday afternoon that she wanted to stay here it was too late – they had thrown out 2 storage units worth of her stuff, not to mention her apartment. She is a total packrat, probably has OCD and compulsively buys stuff so there was plenty that needed to be cleaned out, but imagine boxing up the contents of your home and throwing it in a dumpster. That’s what they did. My son came running to the front to tell us BIL & SIL threw out 15 boxes of books my mom promised MIL we’d hang onto for her. We had the kids in the dumpster trying to salvage the books. I shudder to think what irreplaceable items wound up in the trash. It was like watching a city being pillaged.
MIL is with us right now and will stay with my mom for a bit. I don’t know what will happen long run. I feel wrung out. I saw a number on the scale Friday that scared me, and frankly I only added to it this weekend. I have my gym bag packed. I have my menu planned. Not sure what else to do.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Whoa.
The past couple of days have been tough. I have been feeling a lot of pressure this week - the new job plus hub has been working evenings. I binged Wednesday night. Thursday I woke up with a bit of a stomach bug and stayed home. Hub called - his mom got fired from her job yesterday. No warning and no reason given. The really bad part is that she manages a storage unit rental place and lives on the property. She has until Sunday to move out. Hub's brother & family are coming down this weekend to help her move. Knowing him, I expect this weekend to be very drama filled and stressful. And I am worried about her. She has been depressed and this sure won't help, although I think it will be better in the end. She has wanted to move up to Maryland to be closer to the grandkids, and this will push that along.
Needless to say, food has been spotty, gym nonexistent and this weekend will be nuts. I need to get back on track before things slip too far. Yikes.
The past couple of days have been tough. I have been feeling a lot of pressure this week - the new job plus hub has been working evenings. I binged Wednesday night. Thursday I woke up with a bit of a stomach bug and stayed home. Hub called - his mom got fired from her job yesterday. No warning and no reason given. The really bad part is that she manages a storage unit rental place and lives on the property. She has until Sunday to move out. Hub's brother & family are coming down this weekend to help her move. Knowing him, I expect this weekend to be very drama filled and stressful. And I am worried about her. She has been depressed and this sure won't help, although I think it will be better in the end. She has wanted to move up to Maryland to be closer to the grandkids, and this will push that along.
Needless to say, food has been spotty, gym nonexistent and this weekend will be nuts. I need to get back on track before things slip too far. Yikes.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Still Alive
Just a quick note. I haven't fallen off the bandwagon or anything. The home computer is dead, and the laptop for my new job is supposed to be delivered this morning. Give me a day or two for the dust to settle. Other than Sunday afternoon, BFL is going well. Sunday afternoons are my downfall. I need to change my "free" day from Saturday to Sunday to deal with that issue. I am trying that this weekend.
Take care.
Just a quick note. I haven't fallen off the bandwagon or anything. The home computer is dead, and the laptop for my new job is supposed to be delivered this morning. Give me a day or two for the dust to settle. Other than Sunday afternoon, BFL is going well. Sunday afternoons are my downfall. I need to change my "free" day from Saturday to Sunday to deal with that issue. I am trying that this weekend.
Take care.
Friday, January 06, 2006
Cooldown
Wrapping things up here at the old job. Everything is moved but my tea & thermos, mouse pad, and flying Mojo Jojo pencil topper. They have to move my phone and computer - that will happen next week. I think it will all seem real next Wednesday or so.
Good workout yesterday - biceps, triceps, and 20 solid minutes on the treadmill. They had the doors open at the gym, which felt good. I left work tired & headachy & not wanting to go to the gym. As always, I left the gym feeling better than when I walked in the door. Isn't that amazing? I just remember that feeling and put the car on autopilot. :-)
Eating was fine too. I stopped by the library and checked out "Eating for Life" - the cookbook by Bill Phillips to go with his "Body for Life" book. I am loving it so far! I think this is one I will buy. My mom & the boy & I are going out for mexican tomorrow while hub plays his D&D game. BFL gives you a free day, but I had an incident involving crackers Wednesday night, so I am counting that as one "meal", giving myself another free meal, and calling it good. I will eat different but on the BFL plan Sunday. This cookbook has a lot of yummy looking stuff I can't wait to try next week.
The evil nasty horrid scale was down 0.5 pounds today. The human body is an amazing thing, but hormones can be a real pain. I am sticking with my plan anyway. Stupid scale.
Have a great weekend!
Wrapping things up here at the old job. Everything is moved but my tea & thermos, mouse pad, and flying Mojo Jojo pencil topper. They have to move my phone and computer - that will happen next week. I think it will all seem real next Wednesday or so.
Good workout yesterday - biceps, triceps, and 20 solid minutes on the treadmill. They had the doors open at the gym, which felt good. I left work tired & headachy & not wanting to go to the gym. As always, I left the gym feeling better than when I walked in the door. Isn't that amazing? I just remember that feeling and put the car on autopilot. :-)
Eating was fine too. I stopped by the library and checked out "Eating for Life" - the cookbook by Bill Phillips to go with his "Body for Life" book. I am loving it so far! I think this is one I will buy. My mom & the boy & I are going out for mexican tomorrow while hub plays his D&D game. BFL gives you a free day, but I had an incident involving crackers Wednesday night, so I am counting that as one "meal", giving myself another free meal, and calling it good. I will eat different but on the BFL plan Sunday. This cookbook has a lot of yummy looking stuff I can't wait to try next week.
The evil nasty horrid scale was down 0.5 pounds today. The human body is an amazing thing, but hormones can be a real pain. I am sticking with my plan anyway. Stupid scale.
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Blah blah blah
I’m tired. The boy has poison ivy & had to go to the doctor yesterday. Gym didn’t happen. Work is stressful. Next week will be stressful in a different way as I learn a new job.
Things I need to remember: Food is not my friend. Yes, it will make me feel better in the short run, but the price is too high in the long run. Take some tea bags home for a cup of hot tea at night.
Weights & moderate cardio this afternoon. The gym bag is in the car. I will be more interesting in a couple of weeks when I have the time & energy to string together coherent thoughts that don’t involve statistical modeling. I promise. My family is probably more tired of me than you are.
A kind reader sent in a link for a recipe for a chocolate martini. I’m not looking!!!!! :-)
I’m tired. The boy has poison ivy & had to go to the doctor yesterday. Gym didn’t happen. Work is stressful. Next week will be stressful in a different way as I learn a new job.
Things I need to remember: Food is not my friend. Yes, it will make me feel better in the short run, but the price is too high in the long run. Take some tea bags home for a cup of hot tea at night.
Weights & moderate cardio this afternoon. The gym bag is in the car. I will be more interesting in a couple of weeks when I have the time & energy to string together coherent thoughts that don’t involve statistical modeling. I promise. My family is probably more tired of me than you are.
A kind reader sent in a link for a recipe for a chocolate martini. I’m not looking!!!!! :-)
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
A rant and some suck suck suck
I believe that PMS-ing women should not have to go to work. They should not have to train a new employee, worry about whether their laptop for their new job will get set up before the old PC gets re-imaged (and computer company HAL will lose 6 years worth of stuff), or go to the gym and do HIIT training. We should be at the spa. Or on the beach in Mexico, being fed chocolate martinis by a thong wearing male bikini model. Really. (Is there such a thing as a chocolate martini? There should be.)
Food and exercise were both on track yesterday. Today is bis, tris, & abs, followed by 20 - 30 minutes on the dreadmill at moderate intensity. Yesterday was HIIT - thats an acronym for "Kick yo' a$$". My goal? To get through this stay and stick to my plan. Trod trod trod.
Need some joy? Me too. I cruised over the fat Cyclist & took the "Tour de France Personality Test" - aaahhh, some good memories from the summer. What are you waiting for? http://spaces.msn.com/members/fatcyclist/Blog/cns!1pUmGvi9idWgOodsIbhHUOQA!324.entry
I believe that PMS-ing women should not have to go to work. They should not have to train a new employee, worry about whether their laptop for their new job will get set up before the old PC gets re-imaged (and computer company HAL will lose 6 years worth of stuff), or go to the gym and do HIIT training. We should be at the spa. Or on the beach in Mexico, being fed chocolate martinis by a thong wearing male bikini model. Really. (Is there such a thing as a chocolate martini? There should be.)
Food and exercise were both on track yesterday. Today is bis, tris, & abs, followed by 20 - 30 minutes on the dreadmill at moderate intensity. Yesterday was HIIT - thats an acronym for "Kick yo' a$$". My goal? To get through this stay and stick to my plan. Trod trod trod.
Need some joy? Me too. I cruised over the fat Cyclist & took the "Tour de France Personality Test" - aaahhh, some good memories from the summer. What are you waiting for? http://spaces.msn.com/members/fatcyclist/Blog/cns!1pUmGvi9idWgOodsIbhHUOQA!324.entry
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Day 1 BFL
Things went pretty well. I made a change to the workouts for the first 2 weeks. Bill has a 2 day split, with you lifting 3 days per week. So, week 1 you would do 2 upper body and 1 lower body workout. Week 2 you would flip and do 2 lower and 1 upper. I split the upper, so I now have a 3 day split which I will do the first couple of weeks to ease myself in. I am pushing myself much harder. Dude, I was doing db rows with 50 lb weights! I did 20 min on the treadmill after.
On the food front, I continue to find ways to disguise that super food cottage cheese to make it palatable. The search continues. My mom took us out to dinner, I had chicken fajitas, eating only the chicken & grilled veggies, with a couple of bites of the rice & black beans & guacamole. I avoided the chips like the plague. My dinner was good. I bought a George Foreman to do my supper since I am eating different from the family at dinner. My other meals are pre-prepared, but I want my dinner fresh. It's not bigger than other meals, but that will make it tastier, and I can personalize it each night by varying the seasoning.
Todat I go back to my WW meetings. I don't think I'll sign up again - its just not for me. But maybe the support will help. The jury is still out.
Things went pretty well. I made a change to the workouts for the first 2 weeks. Bill has a 2 day split, with you lifting 3 days per week. So, week 1 you would do 2 upper body and 1 lower body workout. Week 2 you would flip and do 2 lower and 1 upper. I split the upper, so I now have a 3 day split which I will do the first couple of weeks to ease myself in. I am pushing myself much harder. Dude, I was doing db rows with 50 lb weights! I did 20 min on the treadmill after.
On the food front, I continue to find ways to disguise that super food cottage cheese to make it palatable. The search continues. My mom took us out to dinner, I had chicken fajitas, eating only the chicken & grilled veggies, with a couple of bites of the rice & black beans & guacamole. I avoided the chips like the plague. My dinner was good. I bought a George Foreman to do my supper since I am eating different from the family at dinner. My other meals are pre-prepared, but I want my dinner fresh. It's not bigger than other meals, but that will make it tastier, and I can personalize it each night by varying the seasoning.
Todat I go back to my WW meetings. I don't think I'll sign up again - its just not for me. But maybe the support will help. The jury is still out.
Monday, January 02, 2006
This is my body for life
Since this is the only one I got issued, I better take care of it! The title is also a play on words - I am starting the "Body for Life" eating plan today. My 6 meals a day are planned for 6 days. See how clever that is? I've planned my food for Saturday. Not until the weekend and then its a free for all/scavenger hunt search for food. It's all planned until my free day Sunday. Woo!
As for exercise, plan to hit the gym Mon - Thur and again on the weekend once. Plus a long run on the weekend. I've got buy-in from my support staff (aka "family"), so I should be able to make it barring bad weather or sickness.
Had a great party NY eve. I love sour apple martinis! Who knew? Thank goodness I don't drink licquor on a regular basis or I'd need to lose a lot more weight than I do!
Okay, not too exciting I know. From dead to slammed here at the office. Back to work with me. Happy New Year everyone!
Since this is the only one I got issued, I better take care of it! The title is also a play on words - I am starting the "Body for Life" eating plan today. My 6 meals a day are planned for 6 days. See how clever that is? I've planned my food for Saturday. Not until the weekend and then its a free for all/scavenger hunt search for food. It's all planned until my free day Sunday. Woo!
As for exercise, plan to hit the gym Mon - Thur and again on the weekend once. Plus a long run on the weekend. I've got buy-in from my support staff (aka "family"), so I should be able to make it barring bad weather or sickness.
Had a great party NY eve. I love sour apple martinis! Who knew? Thank goodness I don't drink licquor on a regular basis or I'd need to lose a lot more weight than I do!
Okay, not too exciting I know. From dead to slammed here at the office. Back to work with me. Happy New Year everyone!
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