Friday, March 30, 2007

Ta ta for now!

No long post today, just wanted to say bye. Have a great week!

Thursday, March 29, 2007

A rainshower of petals

I am so stressed out, tired, and generally used up it isn’t funny. I am feeling critical and defensive about everything. Not good. Luckily I have half of today left and tomorrow and I’m out of here. I need to make a list of what I need to do/buy/pack before we go. I hate going down to the wire with the organization, but I’ve just been too tired to do any better.

Last night after running errands, fixing supper, etc, the boys went off to buy paintball stuff. I laced up my shoes and went for a walk. Just a walk – bouncy music, but no intervals or timing. I walked 2 miles. I looked at flowers, smelled the mown grass, admired the sky. A storm was moving in and it turned cool and windy. The strong wind blew the petals off the blooming Bartlett pear trees, creating a shower of petals. Lovely. Now, Bartlett pear trees in bloom smell like rotting something (stronger than fruit, but milder than meat – rotting vegetables maybe?), but I didn’t even care. I went home, opened the French doors, and enjoyed the breeze. May I return from vacation feeling as fresh as that breeze.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Clothes

So, I went to Target after work last night. Over in the bathing suit area (a scary place IMO), they had some stuff that was being touted as swimsuit outerwear type stuff. Stretchy flowy fabric, but could go casual or dressy. From there I bought a pair of capris and a skirt, both in brown. I bought a white skirt, but it’s a little sheer, so I don’t know whether I’m going to keep it or not. I also bought 2 polo style shirts – these were a deal and I can wear them for a long time. I also bought a pair of $20 sunglasses. I don’t exactly need them, but I wanted them. So, $96 dollars later…. I may take back the white skirt; I’m just not sure where or when I would wear it. I really wanted it in khaki, but they didn’t have that color in my size.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

"Every human being is the author of his own health or disease." ~~Buddha

Thanks for the comments. My attitude is much better today! For one, I agree with Buddha – my health IS my responsibility. I ate healthy foods yesterday, I ran this morning, and I got my toenails painted pink – with flowers on my big toes. I think the attitude turnaround is largely due to the polish – smirk.

After thinking it over, I have decided to run by Target this afternoon and buy a pair of capris and maybe a pair of shorts, and a top. There is a Goodwill in my small town, but their clothes aren’t all that. I’d rather stop by one place where I’m 90% certain I’ll find something, rather than have to run around Greensboro (and deal with the traffic here) and gamble that a place might or might not have anything. Given the time constraints of this week, I’ll spend a little more money.

When I get back from vacation, I’ll see where the weather is. Right now its unseasonably warm, but if it cools off then I won’t need anything for 3 or 4 more weeks. So, I’ll get a couple of things and then wait and see.

One of the great things about Edisto is the gorgeous 7 mile bike loop that we ride together each morning. I think I’ll get plenty of exercise, so I just need to keep my food under control. I so need this vacation. Work is kinda stressful right now, so it’s a good time for a break.

I am re-reading Tom Venuto’s “Burn the Fat, Feed the Muscle” e-book. Very motivational read. I got cardio coach kicking my butt, and I just got my copy of “The Women” by Bill Dobbins – a book of photographs of the worlds’ top female body builders. Amazing.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Vacation Countdown: 5 days

I had a very nice weekend. I worked on the illumination piece I am doing for hub. I got it designed & drawn onto the piece of Bristol board (that took several hours). A friend came over & lent a hand (with advice), so that plus a morning haircut appointment was pretty much my Saturday. Sunday was grocery shopping, housework, and helping hub in the garage. He built some additional shelving so we put stuff away and sorted through some stuff.

There was a dark side to the weekend. The realization that I no longer have a single pair of capris that fit, practically no shorts, and only a couple of casual tops I feel comfortable in. That makes me miserable. Hub & I had a talk & he is committed to helping me, but let’s face it – no one can really help me but me. And while my eating wasn’t terrible this weekend, I managed to get in exactly no exercise. And I overslept this morning. So I’m not exactly off to an auspicious start. Sigh. I really need this vacation.

But I am in a bit of a dilemma; make do with what clothes I have and work very hard on losing weight, or buy at least a few things for spring until I lose weight?

Friday, March 23, 2007

Stupid hormones

As you can see from the sidebar, I gained the weight I lost. Not really – my fingers are so swollen I can’t wear my wedding ring set! But it is a bit demoralizing. Add cramps to that, and it all equals a sad camper.

However, it is supposed to be in the upper 70s today, with a gorgeous weekend ahead of us. I have nowhere to go, a fun class to take (and she’s coming to my place!), and the vacation countdown has begun. So no griping girl!

Have a nice weekend!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

No soup for you!

Sorry, but no post today. My raging hormones have taken control of my mind and body. I will sit quietly in the corner, rocking myself and sipping on my coccoa until I feel better. Maybe a little Yanni to soothe the savage beast within....

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Problem #472 caused by Global Warming – Pollen

While I love have warmer winters, the amount of pollen in the air is kicking my butt. We always have a lot of pollen here, but this is getting ridiculous. I don’t even have allergies, but I’m getting headaches due to all the junk in the air. Ugh! The boy is home sick with a horrible sinus headache, and I wish I were too!

Other than that, I’m doing okay. Got the boy packed off to grandma so I could come into the office today. I didn’t sleep particularly well, and didn’t get up until 6. I have my gym bag in the car, but I won’t be able to go if I have to pick the boy up after work.. Oh well – the best laid plans etc etc…

Not too much to say today, so I will instead share a recipe. This calls for flank steak – I used it over boneless skinless chicken breasts and its great. Next time I would add an additional chipotle chili. It was yummy, but not spicy hot or anything.

South American Flank Steak

INGREDIENTS

• 1 1-pound beef flank steak
• 1 cup lightly packed fresh cilantro
• 1/3 cup orange juice
• 4 teaspoons red wine vinegar
• 1 tablespoon extra-virgin olive oil
• 4 cloves garlic, minced (2 teaspoons minced)
• 2 teaspoons ground cumin
• 2 teaspoons ground coriander
• 1 1/2 to 2 teaspoons finely chopped canned chipotle chile peppers in adobo sauce
• 1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
• 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper

DIRECTIONS

Trim fat from steak, and score in a diamond pattern. Place in plastic bag.In a blender combine cilantro, orange juice, vinegar, olive oil, garlic, cumin, coriander, chile peppers, kosher salt and black pepper. Cover and blend until smooth. Wear rubber or plastic gloves because chili peppers can irritate.Pour orange juice mixture into bag. Let marinate.Drain steak, discarding marinade. For a charcoal grill, place steak on the rack of an uncovered grill directly over medium coals. Grill for 17 to 21 minutes or until medium doneness (160°F), turning steak once halfway through grilling. Thinly slice against grain and plate.

TIPS

Scoring the meat first allows excess fat to drain during cooking and assists with flavor absorption and tenderization while marinating. For less heat in the marinade, just use a couple teaspoons of the adobo sauce and leave out the chipotle peppers.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Spotlight: Vegetables, or, Oh how I love CostCo!

Yes, we did have a fecal done on Chyna (which came back negative). We are isolating Maya tonight to make sure she isn’t the culprit – if she is then in she goes as well. We are fortunate to have a great vet, who is pretty thorough. Thanks for asking! All in all, the dogs do seem to be settling in. Chyna is going to be the alpha I’m pretty sure – she likes to “herd” Maya by nipping at her back. :-O Maya is still a puppy and a total love hound spaz. She thinks everyone should let her sit in their lap.

But back to what I wanted to write about. Last week I relied heavily on protein shakes. It helped get my portions back down so it was helpful, but my vegetable and fruit intake was a bit low. I have swung to the other end of the pendulum this week. Behold, the menu for the week:

B: protein shake (scoop protein, ½ cup orange juice), oatmeal with blueberries
S: ½ cup Fiber 1, ½ cup cottage cheese hummus (recipe to follow) with a bell pepper to dip, a kiwi
L: veggie burger on sprouted grain bread, spinach salad with homemade lowfat dressing
S: grilled chicken and grapes (to be replaced with kiwi when the grapes run out)

I have a big tub of organic baby spinach, a bag of butter lettuce, and 2 pounds of fresh asparagus. I bought a big bag of 6 lovely bell peppers in yellow, orange, and red, a bag of lemons, and a container of blueberries for me & the boy. Mine are going in my oatmeal. I think CostCo has the very best produce of any “grocery.” The farmer’s market is good for a lot of stuff, but C has some items that I just can’t get at the farmer’s market. Corn on the cob is starting to look good as well. My family loves it. I can hardly wait for tomatoes – I have a baked tomato recipe that is yummy. Hurray for veggies! Hurray for a place that has yummy ones at reasonable process!

I got this idea from a recipe I saw. While I wasn’t terribly impressed by the actual recipe, I was intrigued by the idea of adding cottage cheese to hummus. A nice way to boost the protein so that hummus & veggies can be a stand alone snack, but will it taste like cottage cheese? Nope! You can do this with any hummus recipe. And I have recipes for curried hummus, Italian hummus, pepper hummus…. You get the idea.

Cottage cheese hummus that I made this week

¾ cup cottage cheese
1 can garbanzos, well rinsed
Juice of 1 lemon
A spoonful of minced garlic
A dash of salt
1 bell pepper
1 jalepeno
1 roasted pepper
Black pepper
Cumin to taste

Put it all in the food processor until smooth. You can mix everything else up then slowly add the cottage cheese if you are concerned that it will overwhelm your recipe.

Or:

Using your favorite hummus recipe, add about ½ - ¾ cup cottage cheese per can of garbanzos. You may need to boost the seasonings to keep it flavorful.
Stiff upper lip!

Hello hello. I have a bit more time today. First, thank you for asking about the doggies! Someone (either Chyna or Maya) had diarrhea 2 nights in a row. The vet thinks it may be a bacterial infection. There was none last night, but we do have an antibiotic in the event it happens again. So, nothing serious other than my dining room carpet is looking pretty bad. Glad replacement begins after we get back from the beach!

We went to see the movie “Wild Hogs” yesterday – I thought it was really funny. I know the reviews have been mixed, but I enjoyed it. Of course, my taste is pretty low brow.

This morning was very frustrating – hence today’s title. After school math tutoring which was happening on Tuesdays has been cancelled. I found this out in the car this morning. While hub is out of town, mom has been picking up the boy Mon, Wed, & Thu, with me picking him up on Tuesday. Only now that means I have to leave work at 2:30. Ugh. Mom is picking him up today while we look for a solution. That’s a little early for me to leave, but I don’t want mom to have to pick him up every day either. I just loved getting that bomb dropped on me in the car on the way to school.

The boy wouldn’t get out of bed, I was feeling very rushed (and hormones are making me cranky anyway), there was the after school thing, and I forgot ‘muffins for mom’ at school this morning. I was just teary on the way in to work.

There are some good things!

For one, I did a very good job of planning my food this week. While I generally do the whole balanced meals & snacks, my sources of protein, carb, & fat vary in quality. This week I’m on the clean end of the scale, with loads of veggies & fruits, grilled chicken breast, and a successful cottage cheese experiment! I decided to make hummus and dip bell pepper in it – well, I found a hummus recipe that includes cottage cheese. It’s creamier than regular hummus and I gotta say you cannot taste the cottage cheese. Success! I also took the time last week to peruse my recipes (I have about a billion) to find some new dinner ideas.

I got up and did my cardio coach this morning. Afternoon weight lifting is just not working, so I think I’m going to hit the gym 2 mornings a week. I was doing that with hub, but with him out of town that isn’t happening. I love routine, I just can’t ever seem to find one that works more than a couple of weeks at a time!

Okay, that’s about all I know.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Is it wrong to whine about the weekend?

Do you ever go back to work Monday, ask a collegue how their weekend was, and get "eh" for a response? Or does everyone gush about how they floated on a cloud of peace, love, and rest for a fabu 48 hours?

I guess I'm guilty too - I never say anything more negative than "just fine." Because even if it was hideous, hey, at least you weren't at work, right? But I like work, so not just anything is necessarily a preferable alternative.

So: my weekend kinda sucked, thankyouverymuch. My husband was sick, my cell phone broke, and one of my dogs has diahrrea. (Ewwww!)

Hub is home sick today, but is luckily well enough to take the dog to the vet and hopefully do something about that sinkful of dishes that never got done.

How was YOUR weekend??? Be honest!!! :-)

Friday, March 16, 2007

National savings plan

I confess – I do that thing that financial advisors tell you not to: use income tax as a savings vehicle. Oh sure, their logic is flawless: why let the government (called “gubment” here in the south) use my money for free when I could be earning interest on it? You are all real people so you see the flaw in their logic: they actually believe I would save that money instead of blowing it on god only knows what! Ha ha ha! They don’t live with my family. Which is why I overpay my taxes and get a tidy little chunk back come March – just in time for family vacation. Sweet! I got a warm happy feeling seeing that nice check direct deposited like magic to my bank account. Then I moved it over to pay down a loan. :-O

Hub is still futzing with the bathroom – the grout needs to be re-done in a couple of places because it didn’t set up properly. The doors aren’t back on the cabinet. But he cleaned it up last night, and moved the stuff from the garage so I could park in it. Just in time too since it started raining sometime in the night.

Due to the rain, I left the dogs in the house. I let them outside right before we left, and mom and the boy will be there to let them out at 3. I hope they are okay. Chyna stills pees in the house every once in a while – I’m going to take a sample in to the vet to eliminate the possibility of a bladder or urinary infection. I am glad we decided to replace the carpet, and I’m glad we haven’t done it yet. We need to get this issue resolved first!

I went by the library to pick up a couple of books they were holding for me. While I was there I perused the shelf for books on bath remodeling. I’m trying to get some ideas for the master bath. I know I can’t do it right away – but oh how I would love to do it next year!

I’m on track to get in 4 interval sessions and 1 weight lifting session this week. That’s not enough weights. I started off the week strong and kinda puttered out. But its still an improvement. And eating was improved as well. Result? A nice 1.5 pound loss, as seen in the sidebar. I’m on my way (again).

Oh, happy St Urho’s day!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I do not like green eggs and ham. I don’t much care for yellow ones either.

I don’t much like eggs. I recognize that they are inexpensive, convenient, and an excellent source of almost pure protein. But I just don’t like to sit down to a plate of them. I’ll take my heresy one step further and assert that I’m not a huge fan of breakfast food in general. Given the choice between an omelet and a bowl of spaghetti, I’m on the spaghetti - even at 7 am. Breakfast for dinner has a huge fan club, but dinner for breakfast? I’m alone in the wilderness.

Why am I bringing this up? Sometimes I get so sick and tired of planning, you know? Try planning balanced meals & snacks when you don’t like eggs for breakfast or cottage cheese for anything. Do you know I’ve been planning my meals for a good 6 years now? I know that I’ll be doing it for the rest of my life. Some days that thought just depresses me. Most of the time I recognize that healthy, balanced, appropriately sized meals don’t happen by accident. Meal planning isn’t exclusively the realm of the dieter- it’s the realm of the performance athlete, the body builder, - anyone trying to make their body look like anything other than a pillow.

The other night when we went out to supper, I ordered grilled shrimp and a deviled crab, with baked potato and slaw. My husband and son both ordered fried stuff. My son remarked, “See mom, this is how normal people eat.” To which I replied, “ You’re right. And that’s why we’re the fattest nation in the world.”

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Sorry, I just can’t think of a catchy title today

Hello. Yesterday was very hectic. Hub was working out of town. The boy went home with a friend (thankfully!), so I ran a couple of errands after work. In W-M I found myself eyeing the Mexican tv dinners – I was hungry and wanted comfort food! I talked myself off the ledge, then had to talk myself out of an illicit trip to Taco Bell. I made it home and fixed myself a snack, laid down for 5, and took a nice bath while reading a book. Ahhhh…..

I picked up the boy, met the hub at the Seafood Shack (a new restaurant we haven’t tried. Its not really "new" any more, but we still hadn’t been). Had a healthy dinner since I wasn’t ravenous, then went home, got us and Maya into 1 car, and headed down to Petco to get her cleaned up!

The boy & hub washed the dog while I hit Target. They said the water was brown – I believe it. They also said she hates water (judging from how wet they were, I believe that too!).

In the meantime, I found a tent for the boy for Pennsic – he wanted a bigger one (the old one was pretty small). So there went $150, but it is a cabin tent, which means it has tall walls. We could have gotten that kind for $100, but decided to go with the one that is of better quality. I hate spending money.

By the time we got home, it was time for bed. So, no “snackin’ time!” again. Woo hoo! I decided to sleep in this morning and get caught up on sleep (I was starting to really drag). Mom is picking the boy up from school, so I can hit the gym after work for weights. It’s been 3 weeks, so a nice easy total body workout is in order. I’ve already done 3 interval sessions this week, which was my goal. I continue to feel better.

I packed healthy food today, although I packed something different to break up the week. I’ve been doing protein shakes for snack and veggie burger with side veggies for lunch. Today I brought lowcal cheese for snacks and grapefruit, and an elk burrito for lunch. Yum! Tonight I am fixing the shrimp creole I planned to fix last night. After that, I think I will park my butt in my chair and read a book!

I got 2 books from the library yesterday and have a couple more in my queue – all about the Spartans and the battle of Thermopolye. Yeah, once I get curious about a subject I get a bit obsessed for a while. Right now, the movie “300” has me all curious about fact vs. fiction.

But I got them from the library instead of buying them from Amazon. I am trying to curb extraneous purchases. It’s not like I buy clothes or shoes or even a lot of beauty products, but just because I spend my money on books or videos doesn’t make it any less frivolous. We didn’t go out to eat last weekend and we have no plans to go out this weekend either, so that’s an improvement! And yes, we did go out last night. But we rarely go out during the week, so the boy doesn’t get to eat out a lot. I like for us to go as a family once a month or so.

I have to say, I generally enjoy going out to eat. When we go, I try to make it because its something we truly want to do (like hitting the Greek deli that has such wonderful food, or the Mexican place where the owner’s mom comes in every morning to hand make the tamales) as opposed to doing it for the convenience. But I have to admit, I feel guilty about eating out. We used to eat out 2 or 3 times a weekend, so we have gotten better. And sometimes when life gets crazy I do resort to grabbing take-out, but that’s rare.

What do you think? What is the happy medium between enjoying dining out as a treat and overkill?

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Time sprang forward, but I’m still catching up

I love daylight savings time – the whole longer evenings concept is awesome. What I don’t like is trying to get my body adjusted! It has been a real struggle to get out of bed at 5 am the past couple of days. Hub and I both had to get up this morning since he needed to leave the house at 6. Yikes! But he got up and I got up and hit the pavement.

My cardio coach CD is an interval workout as follows: warm-up, steady state effort, a challenge of 3 20 second sprints with 40 second rests, a short recovery, then a challenge of 1 minute sprints with 1 minute recovery between, a longer steady state break to recover, then a full 3 minutes of hard effort, followed by cool down. Obviously my speed isn’t the same, but the nice thing is that with the focus on perceived exertion, that works just fine. That last 3 minutes coincides with the steepest hill, followed by 2 staightaways, then home. I ran all the sprints, but couldn’t do the full 3 minutes because running up that hill wiped me out. But I did manage to sprint that final 20 seconds. It was a pleasant 43 and clear. I felt awesome!

Food was fine last night, although there was a lack of veggies at dinner. I made shredded elk in the crock pot for “build your on burrito”. I had fat free refried beans, homemade Mexican rice, salsa. I meant to put out salad and was just so pooped I forgot. Oops! It was really good, and actually I didn’t even have a snack after because I was satisfied. Tonight is more veggie-centric: homemade shrimp gumbo, along with a salad!

I dunno what I’ll see on the scale, but I am feeling a lot better.

Now to get that whole weights thing going again. Luckily my mom gets back from Florida tonight – I may get some gym time this week yet!

How are you????

Monday, March 12, 2007

Amazon: crack for the reader

How crazy is it that I have 130 items in my Amazon wish list? Oh sure, there are a few albums, but who has that much time to read?!?!?!
Besides the noble art of getting things done, there is the noble art of leaving things undone. The wisdom of life consists in the elimination of non-essentials.--Lin Yutang
Sleep, Interrupted

Monday already – amazing. My weekend was pretty nice! Here’s a list of thoughts, in no particular order.

1. Dog Land. Maya is the hub’s dog, Chyna is my dog. Chyna is doing pretty good, except for the fact that she will occasionally pee. I don’t know if she just doesn’t know how to ask to go out, or if it is intentional, but we’re working on it. Maya is going to have a steeper learning curve. For one, she thinks that she belongs on furniture. Uh, no. Both Friday and Saturday she decided to sleep in our room, right on the floor beside hub, on his clothes. That isn’t bad – but when he got up in the night to pee, she then jumped in the bed (onto Bess), terrorizing Bess, wreaking havoc, and waking the whole house up. Last night we put up the baby gate so she had to sleep in the living room. Sorry girl, but the mommy needs her sleep. And so does the daddy.

2. Food. I made some deals with myself. I knew that if I did my usual freak out about my weight that disaster would ensue. So, we didn’t go out to eat this weekend (amazing). I bought sushi at Costco for dinner Friday night (which I think is going to become a Friday ritual), and Saturday and Sunday we grilled out. I did do some snacking Friday and Saturday nights, but I limited myself to stuff at the house (popcorn, some lowfat chicken eggrolls in the freezer that I baked) – not good, but much better. The rest of my eating was good, and Sunday afternoon, which is a danger zone (tired, wanting to reward myself), we went to a movie. We split a medium popcorn (no butter), so that minimized the potential damage. Good progress!

3. Exercise. I logged 4 miles on the sneakers this weekend, and another 2 this morning. I may focus on bodyweight exercises for my weight training for a bit. I dunno. Because of the hub’s working out of town, getting to the gym may be difficult. I think I will set up a routine to keep in my back pocket. I finally loaded my first “Cardio Coach” cd on the MP3 player. Love it!

4. “300”. I have 2 or 3 sets of premium movie passes (they can be used for new releases). Since I figured by Sunday afternoon we would both be tired and want a break, we agreed that Sunday afternoon we would hit the movies. My husband was dying to go see “300”, so we did. First off, I am obviously spoiled by living in a small town with a theater that actually has reasonable prices. Four dollars for a medium Coke. Crazy! I’m glad we got in free at least! We both really enjoyed the movie. I was afraid that with all the CGI that it would feel more like a video game than a movie. And yes, at times it did. But I also thought it was really good. The notion that the Spartans were fighting for freedom is taking a pretty generous license with history though!

5. The bathroom remodel. The bathroom is coming along very well. The walls are painted, the cabinet is painted, the new light is installed, the tile is down on the countertop and surround (hub is grouting it today). We priced a new tub – we have decided to go ahead & replace the sink and toilet with new white ones, to be followed by a new white tub and tiling the floor to match the counter. I have all the accessories bought except a new shower curtain. I can’t wait to post pictures!

Friday, March 09, 2007

The truth is out there (in the sidebar)

So, I’ve gained 4 pounds. On the one hand I feel dreadful – huge, guilty, unattractive. On the other hand, I’m thinking “2 weeks of hard work and its gone girl!” I guess I’m glad to know, now I can just get to work for the 5 bazillionth time. The gym bag is in the car – enough said until I can talk about some progress!

Chyna has a nickname “My little pony.” For one, this is my dog. When hub calls her in or tells her to go outside, she tosses her mane and gallops away calling “Girl Power!” over her shoulder. Also, she prances like one of those horses (Leipzigs?) – with her long nose and flowing hair, the nickname fits.

Maya is a sweetie and seems to be recovering nicely from her surgery. She’s a good girl and loves to go outside. She has a bad habit of jumping up to see what is up on counters though. Given that she is currently confined to the kitchen & dining room, this means she is frequently caught checking out counters, dirty dishes in the sink, and the stove top. I have one of those flat glass stove tops, I’m afraid she’s going to burn her paw. When I give her a cookie, she tries to take half my hand. When hub offers her a cookie, she is a sweetheart. She loves us all, but she likes her men folk.

Butchie seems to be doing okay. He closely guards his toys – the other day when I handed out cookies he took his without dropping his toy. Chyna seems to like toys too, so I’m either going to have to keep a bunch or none. But he likes a woman to boss him about, so I think he’s gonna be fine.

Bess is just angry and bitter. She sulks on her sofa until hub grabs her up to snuggle with him. In the morning, she doesn’t want to get out of bed – it’s her retreat from the world. As I told my husband “the dog thy dog is a jealous dog.”

Yesterday was such a long day. I had to be at work at 6 am so I could leave in time to pick the boy up from school. I got up at 5, packed lunches & got ready, worked all day, picked him up, went home and we both worked on chores, took a short break then fixed supper, cleaned up from supper, and took him to tae kwon do. At 8 pm when it was time to help him study for his health test, I just broke down in tears from sheer exhaustion. I sat down, had a snack, watched a little tv, and went to bed. The good news is the snack was a fairly good choice and I was truly hungry, so it wasn’t out of control.

I am looking forward to a fairly quiet weekend. The weather looks to be pretty good, the boy is going to camp grandpa, and I will have a new bathroom!

Have a good one.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Doing better, just please don’t make me get on the scale!

My stress levels continue to go down, I’m not sure my weight is following yet. Exercise is still elusive, but “snackin’ time!” is on the decline. I have to confess, I dread climbing on the scale tomorrow. I know I will want to beat myself up over such stupidity. But I have been avoiding it in fear for how many weeks now? If I want this to end, I need to know the damage. That way I can face it & move on.

This week my focus has been on finishing things up I have been dreading (I did our taxes for example), getting the new dogs settled, and that’s about all I’ve had time for. The boy’s friend came over again last night – he stayed for supper but did go home at bedtime. I made the boys walk Butchie and Chyna, so that was nice. I still haven’t had a chance this week to soak in a tub. I need it.

I am picking the boy up from school today and we are going to go home and do some housework, then schoolwork, then its time for supper and tae kwon do. But I’ll be going into the weekend with a house that isn’t a disaster. I also want to plan meals for the weekend (as opposed to grabbing whatever strikes my fancy). We aren’t doing anything other than putzing around the house, but it’s easier if healthy foods are available and planned in advance.

We are painting the bathroom – we aren’t huge fans of wallpaper to begin with, and I think that when you are planning to sell a house in the future, plain walls are a better option. We are painting it kind of a mustard color (I know!), the cabinet gloss black, (bear with me!), and the countertop is going to be slate tile. It has a tan tile floor now. We are going with an asian sort of design. We have some great accessories. I’ve seen asian designs use mustard and black and look really nice. Now, when we sell the house I will probably re-paint the walls a pale blue, but the asian will stay and it will look very tranquil. The boy picked the wall color. The walls are largely painted, we just have to touch up paint in places where the walls needed to be re-mudded and sanded.

My goals:
Get to the gym Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.
Have one “free” meal this weekend. One.
There are 2 beers in the fridge – one for me, one for hub. Not buy any more this weekend.

For better or scarier, I will post a weight update on the sidebar tomorrow. (Cue the funeral march....)

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Pure insanity

I am still alive and well, living in my lovely home we have dubbed “Dog Land.” We adopted 2 dogs. Maya is a sweetie and loves us. But I saw Chyna and she stole my heart. She is a beautiful collie mix (she looks like Lassie, but solid ginger colored), who hadn’t gotten adopted because of her age (she’s 8). I dreamed about her, and I knew I had to get her. So, we now have 4 dogs. We would be venturing near “crazy dog people” status, but Bess is only 12 pounds, so she’s not like a real dog. More like a “bonus" dog (25% more free!), or a bed warmer.

The new crew is settling in pretty well. Things would be going smoother except my mom is in Florida and we were sitting for her 2 dogs. This, however, did not work. Her dog Lulu was terrified of Chyna and growled at her all the time. I woke up yesterday at 5 am to a doggie rendition of “Fight Club.” So, after discussing it with her (my mom, not the dog), we called her regular dog sitter and he is coming over this evening. I took her dogs over to her house on my way in to the office this morning.

The weekend was pretty decent, and I did manage to make a small dent into the mountain that is my stress. Eating has been as erratic as exercise. I do not feel like I am holding my own. I do feel like I am improving. This week has been hectic – out sick Monday, catching up and working late yesterday, boy had a friend spend the night last night (friend’s mom was in the hospital with chest pains).

We are also juggling some schedule changes. My husband signed a contract on enclosing a carport! It’s a month long job, so that’s great news! The not so great news is that its an hour away. We are looking to try & arrange a 4 by 10 schedule to keep gas costs down. The people are cool with that. The thing is that my son gets picked up from school at 2:45, so I may need to be a bit flexible with my work schedule so my mom isn’t picking him up every day. Frankly, I’m just thrilled he’s working.

The wallpaper came off successfully and the paint is up in our hall bathroom. We need to make more progress as the shower still isn’t usable. Hopefully this weekend. I think its going to look really nice, but of course it is taking stupid long to finish.

Anyway, hopefully the schedule will settle back down so that exercise returns to the realm of possibility.

Friday, March 02, 2007

Coming soon – a new family member!

I am pleased to announce we will soon have a new addition in our home. We went to the animal shelter last night, and we were selected to be the new family for Maya, a Heinz 57 breed, tan, female, 3 years old. She recently had puppies. The family that had her turned her in because they couldn’t afford her. She needs to be fixed, and we can’t bring her home until that has happened. She is very loving and affectionate. I’m not sure I’m quite ready for another dog, but I want her to be integrated into the family before we go on vacation.

Another crazy day at work, so I gotta fly.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Even if ketchup really is a vegetable, I didn’t have any

Yesterday was my son’s birthday, and I think he had a good day. I gotta say though, my eating was terrible! Not too much, just not very good choices. The only vegetables I ate all day were the peas in my Amy’s organic tv dinner that I had for lunch. And no fruit. Pitiful!

Last weekend was non-stop insanity. Work has been super busy, and after work has been busy as well. I did finish the treasurer’s report, but I haven’t made it to the gym at all. We were supposed to go help a friend run a team building for the youth ice hockey team he coaches, but I think I’m going to send the hub along without me. For one, I need to do the taxes, for two, I need a break.

It’s the first day of March. I have a feeling that when I get on the scale tomorrow I am going to realize that I have frittered away the past two months, no closer to my goal that I was. That makes me sad. I guess I’m feeling a little bit defeated right now. I’ve come so far, but I just can’t seem to make the final lap. But I can always start today. Maybe a run in tonight’s rain is what I need.