This is my 2001st post. Unbelievable!
Today was a slow day at work, so it was certainly tempting to eat! Luckily I didn't overdo it - I had my food packed. Dinner was a really good veggie lasagna (heavy on veggies, light on noodles). Tomorrow I am going to be riding in one of our trucks all day, so I plan to pack a lunch that doesn't require heating.
It's still really warm here (mid 70s) but stormy. The weather is so weird! I plan to get on the scale this Friday and see how I'm doing.
Have a good day tomorrow!
Monday, December 28, 2015
Sunday, December 27, 2015
Ready for the work week
This has been a nice break, and I have another long weekend coming up! Food is all prepped. I'm relaxing for a bit before I head to the gym to work out.
I hope you all have had a nice holiday. take care!
I hope you all have had a nice holiday. take care!
Saturday, December 26, 2015
Happy holidays!
Yep, this week has been as crazy and tiring as I expected. It was a good week and a nice Christmas. There were a couple moments of sadness, but overall really nice.
The weather here has been freakishly warm - in the 70s. I thought we were going to have to turn the AC on! My son set up the hot tub for me yesterday, but I haven't tried it out yet. We didn't give each other a lot of gifts, just a few really thoughtful things. It was a nice day.
Today I need to plan the menu, take a walk in the park, and I think we will go to Star Wars. That's about it!
I hope you all enjoy your holidays and have a nice weekend!
The weather here has been freakishly warm - in the 70s. I thought we were going to have to turn the AC on! My son set up the hot tub for me yesterday, but I haven't tried it out yet. We didn't give each other a lot of gifts, just a few really thoughtful things. It was a nice day.
Today I need to plan the menu, take a walk in the park, and I think we will go to Star Wars. That's about it!
I hope you all enjoy your holidays and have a nice weekend!
Monday, December 21, 2015
Day 1 down!
Well, I survived day 1! It was mostly filling out stuff in HR and orientation, being walked around to meet folks, and having lunch with the management team. There is so much to do at this job. I fully expect it to consume my life for the next few months.
I feel like things are beginning to come together....
I feel like things are beginning to come together....
Sunday, December 20, 2015
Bonus post about counting calories
I might not have time or energy to post tomorrow, so I wanted to share this thought.
I know (and have experienced) that food tracking is pretty important in successfully losing weight. I just don't like tracking throughout the day. I can do it, I just don't like doing it. But I'm not a toddler, and I can do things I don't enjoy. However, I have figured out a way to make it easier for me: I prep my food on the weekend and count the calories as I cook it.
For example: Today I made cottage cheese and oat pancakes. I counted the calories as I added the ingredients, so I know each pancake has roughly 50 calories (some a bit bigger, some a bit smaller). Ditto for my pesto salad, which I made and put into 3 containers. Each serving has around 275 calories. I know the counts for 1 c grapes and 12 almonds (my snack). Since I eat the same thing every day, I know how many calories I have going into dinner each night. This way I only have to figure 1 meal (dinner) and 1 snack (after dinner) every day - the rest of the day is accounted for. Some people would rather have variety - I'd rather have the food prepped and counted.
In short, do what works for you. Set things up so you can succeed.
I know (and have experienced) that food tracking is pretty important in successfully losing weight. I just don't like tracking throughout the day. I can do it, I just don't like doing it. But I'm not a toddler, and I can do things I don't enjoy. However, I have figured out a way to make it easier for me: I prep my food on the weekend and count the calories as I cook it.
For example: Today I made cottage cheese and oat pancakes. I counted the calories as I added the ingredients, so I know each pancake has roughly 50 calories (some a bit bigger, some a bit smaller). Ditto for my pesto salad, which I made and put into 3 containers. Each serving has around 275 calories. I know the counts for 1 c grapes and 12 almonds (my snack). Since I eat the same thing every day, I know how many calories I have going into dinner each night. This way I only have to figure 1 meal (dinner) and 1 snack (after dinner) every day - the rest of the day is accounted for. Some people would rather have variety - I'd rather have the food prepped and counted.
In short, do what works for you. Set things up so you can succeed.
A new beginning
Happy Sunday! In less than 24 hours I will be at my new job. I have a lot of feelings about this. My last job was an 18 month contract - I hoped to get on permanently, but at the same time I wasn't as emotionally invested since I was a contractor. And while there are perks to not being full time, I needed something with benefits since mine and my son's health insurance is through my husband's work, and that won't last forever.
I am excited because the company is much smaller than where I've been in the past (I worked at a major credit card company and one of the largest banks in America) and they treat it like family. My boss works for the president that runs all the companies under the umbrella (I'll work for a subsidiary). It's also a LOT of responsibility. So nervous, but excited.
Last night I ate a side of pasta with dinner. Big mistake. If there is one food that sets me off, it's pasta. I have no idea why! I ate a smallish side portion, and still ended up feeling "nibbly" all evening. I can eat a small serving of the Barilla protein plus, but last night was a reinforcement of why I have to stay away from the regular stuff. I'm not normally sensitive to carbs, but pasta is the exception.
I had a great workout with Janet yesterday. Today I am going for a walk in the park, getting ready for tomorrow, and watching some football. I hope you have a nice day!
I am excited because the company is much smaller than where I've been in the past (I worked at a major credit card company and one of the largest banks in America) and they treat it like family. My boss works for the president that runs all the companies under the umbrella (I'll work for a subsidiary). It's also a LOT of responsibility. So nervous, but excited.
Last night I ate a side of pasta with dinner. Big mistake. If there is one food that sets me off, it's pasta. I have no idea why! I ate a smallish side portion, and still ended up feeling "nibbly" all evening. I can eat a small serving of the Barilla protein plus, but last night was a reinforcement of why I have to stay away from the regular stuff. I'm not normally sensitive to carbs, but pasta is the exception.
I had a great workout with Janet yesterday. Today I am going for a walk in the park, getting ready for tomorrow, and watching some football. I hope you have a nice day!
Saturday, December 19, 2015
Weekend plans
I am meeting with Janet again today for a good workout. I've got food planned for the week and the shopping list made. This weekend will be shopping, food prep, laundry, and getting ready for work. :-)
The realtor I worked with to sell my NC house has moved, but she gave my name to another lady she thinks I will like. I have started looking a bit on my own (online), but she is going to set me up on the MLS so I can start looking at houses! Still a ways down the road, but exciting!
The realtor I worked with to sell my NC house has moved, but she gave my name to another lady she thinks I will like. I have started looking a bit on my own (online), but she is going to set me up on the MLS so I can start looking at houses! Still a ways down the road, but exciting!
Friday, December 18, 2015
Last day
Today is my last weekday of unemployment before I start my new job Monday. I am excited and nervous! Last night I was feeling really sad - I have no idea why. I started eating a second snack, then took myself to bed.
Yesterday I had Janet take my measurements - I will ask her to do it again in a couple of months to see my progress. I don't measure myself, so that will be a neat additional measure of progress.
Today mom and I are hitting a couple of consignment shops (they do furniture and housewares) just to look around. Yesterday I made a tablecloth and valences for mom's kitchen out of some pretty holiday fabric I bought last year. I am thrilled with how they turned out. Today I am making her a tote bag.
I still dream about my ex most every night, so I obviously still have a LOT of unresolved feelings. (Not romantic, these are anxiety dreams!) I miss being married, even if things were pretty bad. I hope that at some point down the road I will meet someone that will be a better partner to me.
But I am spending time with friends, and making time for those connections. On the way to Wilmington last weekend, we stopped in Cary to have breakfast with a good friend and his girlfriend - that sort of thing. While there we stopped by and hung out for a while with a couple I've been friends with for many years and we made plans to see each other again. I know I have a lot of wonderful people in my life, and I am thankful for that.
Yesterday I had Janet take my measurements - I will ask her to do it again in a couple of months to see my progress. I don't measure myself, so that will be a neat additional measure of progress.
Today mom and I are hitting a couple of consignment shops (they do furniture and housewares) just to look around. Yesterday I made a tablecloth and valences for mom's kitchen out of some pretty holiday fabric I bought last year. I am thrilled with how they turned out. Today I am making her a tote bag.
I still dream about my ex most every night, so I obviously still have a LOT of unresolved feelings. (Not romantic, these are anxiety dreams!) I miss being married, even if things were pretty bad. I hope that at some point down the road I will meet someone that will be a better partner to me.
But I am spending time with friends, and making time for those connections. On the way to Wilmington last weekend, we stopped in Cary to have breakfast with a good friend and his girlfriend - that sort of thing. While there we stopped by and hung out for a while with a couple I've been friends with for many years and we made plans to see each other again. I know I have a lot of wonderful people in my life, and I am thankful for that.
Thursday, December 17, 2015
Reality Check
So, on Tuesday the trainer (Janet) gave me an assessment to fill out, which asked for my height and weight. I brought it home, filled it out, and this morning got on the scale. Ouch. My guess the other day was correct - I have gained exactly 15 pounds. I am now officially the highest I have ever weighed in my entire life.
I won't lie, I am ashamed, embarrassed, sad, angry.... well, you get the idea. As the saying goes "done can't be undone", but in this case, it kinda can. I can lose the weight.
I am having a hard time writing this - I spent the first years of this blog fretting about losing 10 measly pounds, and now I need to lose 60 or so. Dear lord.
I'd say no time like the present, but trying on my dress pants for work 2 days ago was all the wake up call I needed.
This morning I weighed 210.8.
I won't lie, I am ashamed, embarrassed, sad, angry.... well, you get the idea. As the saying goes "done can't be undone", but in this case, it kinda can. I can lose the weight.
I am having a hard time writing this - I spent the first years of this blog fretting about losing 10 measly pounds, and now I need to lose 60 or so. Dear lord.
I'd say no time like the present, but trying on my dress pants for work 2 days ago was all the wake up call I needed.
This morning I weighed 210.8.
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
Thank you!
Once again, thank you for the well wishes! I am excited. The work is similar to things I've done in the past, but it's an entirely new industry. So I expect to be brain dead when I get home for the next 6 months or so!
I am still have some rough evenings, but overall things are smoothing out on several levels. The support and love of my friends and family, the knowledge that I have a job with a good company, getting to the gym with the trainer .. it's all helping.
I won't say I'm out of this funk/weight gain ride I've been on for nearly a year (I've gained 15 pounds since the ex left), but I think I've made a lot of progress.
Here's to hoping 2016 is a lot better than this year has been!!!
I am still have some rough evenings, but overall things are smoothing out on several levels. The support and love of my friends and family, the knowledge that I have a job with a good company, getting to the gym with the trainer .. it's all helping.
I won't say I'm out of this funk/weight gain ride I've been on for nearly a year (I've gained 15 pounds since the ex left), but I think I've made a lot of progress.
Here's to hoping 2016 is a lot better than this year has been!!!
Monday, December 14, 2015
Thursday, December 10, 2015
A good day
Another productive day so far. I've run a bunch of errands, gotten my winter work clothes all organized, I'm working on my holiday cards.
Food last night was MUCH better and that felt good! I made a really nice lunch to have for the remainder of the week. I riced a cauliflower, roasted zucchini and onion, and poached chicken breast. I have all that in separate containers. Then I made an Indian style sauce. That way we can both eat it, with or without the sauce, or mix & match with something else. I wanted a lunch that gave me a good 3-4 servings of vegetable, and this does that nicely!
The weather is great (it's supposed to be 70 this weekend), so another walk in the park today. :-)
Have a good one!
Food last night was MUCH better and that felt good! I made a really nice lunch to have for the remainder of the week. I riced a cauliflower, roasted zucchini and onion, and poached chicken breast. I have all that in separate containers. Then I made an Indian style sauce. That way we can both eat it, with or without the sauce, or mix & match with something else. I wanted a lunch that gave me a good 3-4 servings of vegetable, and this does that nicely!
The weather is great (it's supposed to be 70 this weekend), so another walk in the park today. :-)
Have a good one!
Wednesday, December 09, 2015
Thank you
First of all, I wanted to take a moment to thank those of you that take the time to leave a comment. I think it's obvious I'm hardly a big time blogger with a huge following - I write this largely as a therapeutic exercise for myself. But if anyone can relate or takes something away, then I am glad. And I also appreciate your support.
I do pretty well until 7 or so, then I go off the rails if I'm going to. I'm just so tired of it, I feel like a broken record. OTOH, I went to the gym and worked out with a trainer yesterday. I ate pretty well (until after dinner). I got a lot accomplished. I've been productive today, and the weather is terrific so I will be taking the dog for a walk later.
The job I interviewed with is checking my references and doing a background check, so one step toward an offer??? Fingers crossed!
Have a good one!
I do pretty well until 7 or so, then I go off the rails if I'm going to. I'm just so tired of it, I feel like a broken record. OTOH, I went to the gym and worked out with a trainer yesterday. I ate pretty well (until after dinner). I got a lot accomplished. I've been productive today, and the weather is terrific so I will be taking the dog for a walk later.
The job I interviewed with is checking my references and doing a background check, so one step toward an offer??? Fingers crossed!
Have a good one!
Tuesday, December 08, 2015
Stuck in the middle
Isn't it a Tom Petty song that has the line "The waiting is the hardest part"? Waiting to hear about a job I interviewed for last week, waiting for my recruiter to set up an interview this week, waiting....
It's hard feeling like your life is on hold. I'm trying to do things I can do now, but honestly, my motivation is pretty low. It isn't really even about overeating, it's about not feeling like I have any energy. I just want to sit in a chair and read a book. I want to be in a cocoon.
I did meet a friend for lunch yesterday, I took the dog for a walk in the park, I fixed a healthy dinner. I'm NOT just sitting in a chair, but honestly there are a lot of things I could be doing that I'm not! And I waffle between completely understanding and reading a book, and feeling the need to push myself out the door. So I'm doing a little of both, which I guess isn't terrible.
I'd like to share something I read in the book "50 50" by Dean Karnazes:
"It is so easy to live a life that has been scripted for you by others, to fall into the mire of conformity by following a path that society has laid before you, rather than heeding your own unique calling. Comfort, complacency, routine, the path of least resistance, the easy road - those things are the bane of humankind. It is a disquieting moment when you awaken to realize the trappings of conventionality have created a life for you that is entirely different from the one you wish to live."
Wow.
There are a lot of things I say I want to do, but don't. I use lack of (fill in the blank) as an excuse. I really need to figure out what I honestly want to do, what things I think I SHOULD want to do but don't really, and start. (Cross Fit, kayaking...)
Losing weight is something I actually DO want to do, but am obviously scared of doing. I am scared of the results and I am scared of giving up my emotional dampener.
Life is a terrific place, but it isn't always easy. Right now is tough, and I know I will come out the other side a stronger version of myself if I use the moment to dig deep inside. It's just sometimes I'm nervous abot what I will find.
It's hard feeling like your life is on hold. I'm trying to do things I can do now, but honestly, my motivation is pretty low. It isn't really even about overeating, it's about not feeling like I have any energy. I just want to sit in a chair and read a book. I want to be in a cocoon.
I did meet a friend for lunch yesterday, I took the dog for a walk in the park, I fixed a healthy dinner. I'm NOT just sitting in a chair, but honestly there are a lot of things I could be doing that I'm not! And I waffle between completely understanding and reading a book, and feeling the need to push myself out the door. So I'm doing a little of both, which I guess isn't terrible.
I'd like to share something I read in the book "50 50" by Dean Karnazes:
"It is so easy to live a life that has been scripted for you by others, to fall into the mire of conformity by following a path that society has laid before you, rather than heeding your own unique calling. Comfort, complacency, routine, the path of least resistance, the easy road - those things are the bane of humankind. It is a disquieting moment when you awaken to realize the trappings of conventionality have created a life for you that is entirely different from the one you wish to live."
Wow.
There are a lot of things I say I want to do, but don't. I use lack of (fill in the blank) as an excuse. I really need to figure out what I honestly want to do, what things I think I SHOULD want to do but don't really, and start. (Cross Fit, kayaking...)
Losing weight is something I actually DO want to do, but am obviously scared of doing. I am scared of the results and I am scared of giving up my emotional dampener.
Life is a terrific place, but it isn't always easy. Right now is tough, and I know I will come out the other side a stronger version of myself if I use the moment to dig deep inside. It's just sometimes I'm nervous abot what I will find.
Monday, December 07, 2015
Monday
My weekend wasn't as productive as I would have liked, primarily because I spent Saturday helping a friend finish moving her folks. It was a good cause, but I still need to sort my fall clothes - it's December for pete's sake!
Anyhow, weekend was pretty good. I am meeting a friend for lunch (yeah, I get together with my girlfriends a lot these days!), and I have plenty of time to go and get started on clothes, but .. ugh. I should get up and get moving, but I'm feeling kind of slug-esque. Part of me says enjoy it now since it won't last forever! :-)
But after meeting her for lunch, I am taking a walk and starting on my clothes!
Food is fine and going out really isn't an issue for me.
Have a good day!
Anyhow, weekend was pretty good. I am meeting a friend for lunch (yeah, I get together with my girlfriends a lot these days!), and I have plenty of time to go and get started on clothes, but .. ugh. I should get up and get moving, but I'm feeling kind of slug-esque. Part of me says enjoy it now since it won't last forever! :-)
But after meeting her for lunch, I am taking a walk and starting on my clothes!
Food is fine and going out really isn't an issue for me.
Have a good day!
Friday, December 04, 2015
Better
Got a decent night's sleep. Got up, had a protein shake, fed dogs, got dressed, and started doing chores.
I feel better today. If nothing else, I always pick myself up by my boot straps. I've been very productive this morning and I'm meeting a friend for lunch, which will be nice.
Today is a better day. Take care.
I feel better today. If nothing else, I always pick myself up by my boot straps. I've been very productive this morning and I'm meeting a friend for lunch, which will be nice.
Today is a better day. Take care.
Thursday, December 03, 2015
Hot mess
I hate that phrase, but it seems to be accurate. I do fine a day or 2 and then go off the rails. It's accomplishing nothing except increasing my frustration, yet I stay in the same cycle. It feels like the movie "Groundhog Day". Ugh.
Interview seemed to go well - we'll see what's next.
Thanks you for the comment - I spoke to a friend as well and I am going to go ahead and take care of the small unit.
Yesterday's was my MIL's birthday - she was over here for dinner. She'd just opened her present from me (holiday earrings) when my husband called. She didn't answer. My mom said "He's probably calling to wish you a happy birthday - answer!" He called right back and she answered. He then chewed her out about something this weekend and did NOT wish her a happy birthday (I doubt he even remembered). Ugh.
Because we're still facebook friends, I posted a photo of her and tagged him, knowing he would see it. (I didn't tell her I did it). She left here near tears. He did call her later and wish her a happy birthday. What a jack ass.
Supposed to go to the gym today. :-( I don't wanna!
Interview seemed to go well - we'll see what's next.
Thanks you for the comment - I spoke to a friend as well and I am going to go ahead and take care of the small unit.
Yesterday's was my MIL's birthday - she was over here for dinner. She'd just opened her present from me (holiday earrings) when my husband called. She didn't answer. My mom said "He's probably calling to wish you a happy birthday - answer!" He called right back and she answered. He then chewed her out about something this weekend and did NOT wish her a happy birthday (I doubt he even remembered). Ugh.
Because we're still facebook friends, I posted a photo of her and tagged him, knowing he would see it. (I didn't tell her I did it). She left here near tears. He did call her later and wish her a happy birthday. What a jack ass.
Supposed to go to the gym today. :-( I don't wanna!
Wednesday, December 02, 2015
Doing what you have to do
Went to the gym and worked out with the trainer (I like her), ate pretty good, got a good night's sleep. I have an interview in a couple of hours.
Our stuff is in 2 storage units: a big one that has the furniture and household stuff, and a smaller one that has the overflow and garage contents (mostly his). I'm trying to decide if I want to go ahead and separate that stuff out so it's done, or just wait until I move. It would save me a little money, but mostly it's one more thing I can go ahead and split out. I can't decide.
Okay, have a good day!
Our stuff is in 2 storage units: a big one that has the furniture and household stuff, and a smaller one that has the overflow and garage contents (mostly his). I'm trying to decide if I want to go ahead and separate that stuff out so it's done, or just wait until I move. It would save me a little money, but mostly it's one more thing I can go ahead and split out. I can't decide.
Okay, have a good day!
Tuesday, December 01, 2015
Sadness and stress
I've been feeling sad and stressed. I don't really want to go into all of it, but my husband is supposed to keep us on his insurance until the divorce and I don't think he did, so I think I will probably have to sue him, which will suck.
It's been a crappy week.
I am meeting with a personal trainer today. I wish I could say I was excited about it, all I can say is that I will show up. Right now, showing up is the best I've got.
Grrr.
It's been a crappy week.
I am meeting with a personal trainer today. I wish I could say I was excited about it, all I can say is that I will show up. Right now, showing up is the best I've got.
Grrr.
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