I'm not okay, you're (probably) not okay either - and I guess that has to be okay

 Hi.

In this case I haven't been posting because I haven't been doing well. Although I don't really discuss it here, I have PTSD. As the lockdown has progressed, my coping skills haven't really kept up and I keep reverting back to previous coping skills (like food). And I feel badly because there are folks who have been MUCH more impacted than me, but minimizing my feelings doesn't help anyone else. 

I sent a note to my counselor and today I am focused on doing things that are caring for myself rather than the house or whatever. I have to make self care a priority, and I haven't been.

Take care of yourselves.

Catching Up

 Been a busy week so far! We opted to do the holiday lights and save the winery - I'm glad we did. We would have been overly tired if we had tried to do both things. We loved the lights. Last minute we decided to take the dogs with us - they loved it! Not just riding in the car, but Susie especially seemed intrigued by the light show. I'm so glad we took them!

I made a quick trip down to my mom's - her birthday is this Saturday but I am not traveling for Thanksgiving, so we celebrated a week early. Food went a bit off the rails but I will just get back on plan! Work has been busy and I am trying to catch up on my house chores, not to mention take advantage of the nice weather to bathe a dog, mow the yard, etc. etc. 

My holiday plans are a very small meal Saturday with just the in-laws and spending Thursday and Friday working on Christmas decorations & watching holiday movies. 

Stay safe & smart!

Never mind

 Okay, I lost 1.2 pounds this week. Not on fire but slow & steady. Since we are going on a date tonight, I did an AM workout. I liked it! Not a time that will work every day, but for today it let me get in a workout, and I am grateful. It is amazing to me how much better I feel when I work out. It's incredible.

We are going to go see a Christmas lights display this evening. Put in some holiday music and just enjoy. I am excited! A local winery is also doing these socially distanced outdoor evenings, so we're packing up the camp chairs and headed to that as well. 

Some things are crazy, but some things are really, really good.

Take care & have a terrific weekend!

Well poo

 So my weight loss seems to have stalled. Blech. We'll see what happens. Headed to see my mom this weekend - before the holiday to avoid traffic and reduce any chance of exposure. I'm keeping busy on house projects and trying to settle in to my new routine of doing a later (less crowded) Cross Fit class. There were 4 people there Monday in a good sized warehouse area, nearest person was a good 20+ feet away.

We are trying some new budgeting software called YNAB - not super intuitive, but so far we are liking it!

Take care - stay safe & smart!

Choices

 I was feeling kind of run down this weekend. As a result, I did some over eating to make myself feel better. Oh well, back in the saddle again.

Like pretty much everywhere, Covid cases are rising here. As much as I enjoy the 4:30 class at the gym it is just too popular. Yes, they take precautions but .. people. I am going to try the 5:30 PM class. The time isn't as convenient, but I understand attendance is maybe half. I need the gym for my mental health, but I need to be smart & safe as well.

I cleaned off the porch & back patio, the beds are mulched, grass mowed, and yard is just about ready for winter. Just need to get shrubs trimmed. 

T's work remains stressful. I do what I can to make things easy for him here at home. But sometimes that just leaves me overwhelmed. I think we're all struggling with balance these days.

Take care.

tired

 Put out mulch today, so I am whipped. Lost 1.5 pounds. Have a good weekend.

Sorry for disappearing!

 

I can't believe it haven't posted in over a week! I'm sorry about that! It's just been kind of boring - T's work is a bit stressful so I'm trying to pick up the slack at home, manage our food - cook really nice dinners since it's the one "meal" we really eat, and juggle work, CrossFit, and manage my stress about the election. You know, nothing special. HA HA HA

Things are going fine with the diet & exercise. I went to the office & packed up my stuff and now have a home office that's a lot more functional here at the house. I have my big monitors etc. We bought a filing cabinet off fb marketplace so T is getting an office upgrade as well. I've also been doing a bit of fall yardwork (raking), putting down weed killer & mulch etc and some holiday sewing. In short, life is going along.

Take care!

Still working the plan

 Headed to CrossFit in a few minutes, but I wanted to check in. The weekend was pretty good, if not very productive. Ah well, nothing wrong with watching movies on Halloween! :-)

We're going along - it's nice to be doing this together and be eating the same things. Makes it easier and more fun. Last night I took a bar and mixed it in the brownie mix and made chocolate/ caramel cookies. One thing is that (like many places) they are having supply issues so the savory foods are more limited. Lots of sweet options available, but I'm just not that into sweets.

Yes, this is a highly processed diet, no I would NOT eat this way long term. But I'm feeling better already. And I continue to take my supplements and put a variety of the lower starch veggies in our diet and use a green superfoods power supplement as well.It may be boring but I don't think I'm going to get scurvy in the next couple of months. Lol

Take care.