Undecided

Hello. Quick check in before I need to get back to work.

Let's see. Tuesday T got home late so we ate late which is why I missed yoga. I used the hot tub & sauna at the Y Tuesday morning and have been using the hot tub at home. I met with the trainer last night for a mostly upper body workout. I'm still sore, but not too bad. Tonight is yoga.

Things I'm not sure about: I like my trainer okay but she just started a new job and I'm just not sure our schedules are going to line up. So I may end up switching. Last night she asked me if I'd be willing to meet at 7 and I balked. I go to bed at 9:30 so no, I don't want to be doing weight lifting & HIIT until 8 PM. And I like seeing my husband.

Another thing I'm unsure about: I'm still on the fence about the scale. The trainer did weigh & measure me last night but I didn't look. I know my loosest size 18 jeans don't fit, so I know I'm big. I am gradually getting my habits under control. My counselor is suggesting I focus on the behaviors (eating, exercise, sleep, etc.) rather than the outcomes (my weight). If I don't use the scale, how do I track/ measure progress? So I don't know. TBD

That's all I got besides my allergies are kicking my butt. Take care.

Still sore

 I am meeting with my trainer again tonight. Still sore from Monday's class. Missed yoga last night. Don't care.

Ugh.

OMG

 

The class last night was deceptively simple - 13 rounds of the following: 8 burpees, 26 squats, 21 kettlebell swings. After 3 or 4 rounds, I cut them in half (at the instructor's suggestion). I was able to finish but boy am I sore today!!!

Finding myself

Something weird is happening over here. For the first time in 18 or so months, I felt more like myself today. I don't know how to explain it better than that. Maybe it's the weather, or catching up on my sleep, or dialing back my melatonin. I don't know. I just know I felt more myself today.

Weekend was good. Not super productive, but I took naps, had lunch with my in-laws, went to the Y for yoga Saturday morning, watched some football. It was good.

I'm doing a kettlebell class at the gym tonight. We are eating leftovers I pulled out of the freezer and I have no regrets. Lol

Still no decision about whether or not to get on the scale Friday. TBD.

Have a good week!

Another nutty week

So far this week is pretty crazy.

Monday T thought he has a PT appointment and busted butt to get there, only to discover they were closed! (Turns out it's next Monday). I went to the Y for the TRX class - well, they have to have 4 people to hold it and they only had 3! One good thing is that while I was there I signed up for personal training. (I have my first session this evening. It's been years since I've worked with a trainer, but it's been helpful in the past. I'll report back!) ANYWAY. I thought "well, at least we can have a nice evening at home." Nope - turned out T decided to head to band practice (he used to play in a concert band 2 years ago but had to quit once he started working at the restaurant. So he went back to that. SO. I was home alone - I was a bit bummed about that but it was okay.

As an aside, he plays bass clarinet and said they have to wear masks while playing, which is hard!

Yesterday the outlet in the office was acting wonky, so I had an electrician out. He's back today to change out our old school fuse box for a breaker panel. Cha-ching. And the cleaning folks were here today (yay!). And the lawn people are coming this evening. Look at me, spending money like I have it! Lol. When I got the new job I knew it would be more demanding, and I knew that having cleaning and lawn folks would take a load off my plate. But the new panel (and the new outlets) are definitely an unexpected expense! Especially right after I paid for 10 weeks of personal training!!

Paula - I bought those noodle bowls at Aldi! They are my favorite grocery store. 

I talked to my counselor this morning about the scale. The trainer (Olivia) is going to weigh me & take my measurements. I asked her NOT to tell me what I weigh. I will likely ask her to take the same readings at the 5 and 10 week marks.  My counselor (we'll call her Laura) asked why I planned to get on the scale next Friday. I've been using it as a measure of failure and it's got my head messed up. This week I've made good progress in getting to a better place mentally, my sleep has improved, and my eating habits are getting better as well. With the trainer's help I am confident I will start to make some good gains in the gym as well.  So maybe I should just focus on those things for now? 

I'm so used to weighing. If I'm not weighing its usually because I'm doing badly. I dunno. I'll think about it. 

I feel like things are improving in my little corner of the world, although the rest of the big world is still kinda crazy town.

Take care.

So far

 

Yesterday was uber busy and I never posted. Overall things are going pretty well. I signed up for 10 weeks of personal training at the Y to give me some accountability and help ensure my butt gets out the door!

I've bought a couple of these and similar - heat and eat quinoa and that sort of thing.  I pan sauteed some chicken tenders and added those plus a bag of steamed stir fry vegetables. It made 2 meals, which halves the carbs and sodium. Not from scratch but still fairly healthy! It's also an easy way to get some variety.

Yesterday I made Indian in the crockpot. I have an Indian slow cooker book I bought years ago and I am finally getting around to making a few recipes out of it. They are really terrific! We both love Indian food but it can be a bit pricey. This won't stop us from dining out now & again, but it's a nice way to get that fix without dropping 50 or more dollars on dinner!

So not perfect but a whole lot better!

You know what? As excited as I was for T to get back to work, I sure do miss him with his getting home so late. I'm glad it's only for a few months.

Take care!

Tiring but good weekend

 

While in training, T has to go into the office - about 75 minutes one way. So he's out of the house roughly 12 hours/day, Monday through Friday. That meant this weekend we had a lot of chores, plus I was scheduled to cook at church for our community lunch (which sounds nicer than "soup kitchen"). So all in all it was a productive but exhausting weekend. I was a bit anxious last evening - I think its just all the change and adjustment and not really feeling rested. 

I'm feeling pretty decent this morning. I got up early and fed dogs, walked Pepper, started a load of laundry, and made a quick run for a few groceries before the workday started.

Tonight I signed up for a TRX class at the Y. I'll report back on that.

Take care!

Ending on a positive note.

Wednesday was a tough day, but yesterday was much better! I threw away 2 bags of chips and started drinking more water. I ate healthier meals and was able to get a good nights' sleep. It was a BIG step in the right direction. I'm feeling better already!

I hope you have a good weekend! 

Decision

 

First up: shout out to Paula for starting a challenge and getting that pesky scale to move down!!

I've had a rough/ exhausting week mentally and my food decisions have been crap and I've had major insomnia for about a week and a half. Have not been to the gym since before I left for the beach. So, decision time.

I am not going to step on the scale until October 1 - a little over 2 weeks away. Right now I want to get back to good habits & sleep and I don't want the scale to be creating any additional anxiety. To that end I want to focus on behaviors rather than outcomes. 

It's not a cop out, but honestly I just can't deal with the added stress of beating myself up over the scale. I am going to focus on what I can control, try to re-establish some good habits, and start weighing in a couple of weeks. 

Sigh. Take care of yourselves. This past year plus has been a roller coaster and still is.

Back

 

Back home. T started his new job yesterday. My son & his gf came into town yesterday (I knew they were coming, but thought it was later in the week). Our washer died & the new one was delivered today. Eating has been a disaster.

I am tired.

Away

Thanks for the kind words. I am currently at my mom's. With her carpal tunnel surgery & follow up etc. we've been down here helping out. So things have been a bit crazy/ stressful/ some things are out of my control. Not giving up, but doing what I can until I get back home Sunday. 

Sanity check September

 

T-shirt I'm seriously thinking about ordering:

I have to do something. After careful eating I watch my weight go up. Bathroom issues? Too many carbs? Mars in retrograde? I don't know, but I am f*&^ing tired of being this big.

Sanity check this month:

No booze (obviously)

No diet sodas

Maximize unprocessed foods

Minimize crap & eating out

Exercise - for my sanity & health.

Take care out there.

September Goals

 

Exercise 6 days per week (in addition to walking the dog).

Track my food.

If I don't see any solid movement on the scale then it's time to do something different.

You know it's serious - I've given up diet pepsi

 "Be stronger than your excuses"

Last night I was not stronger than my excuses, but today is another opportunity to make different, better choices.

Day 2

 

Yesterday was a good day, even though I never made it to the gym. I walked the dog 4 times and my food was under control. 

Lather, rinse, repeat.