Yesterday's food

Yesterday was a good day. I had a good workout with my trainer - we are starting to get into a groove. Food was pretty good.

Breakfast: steel cut oats with berries

Snack: medifast bar

Lunch: chicken breast, sweet potato, spinach

Snack: medifast biscuit, then 2 string cheeses and a diet soda later in the afternoon.

Dinner: adult beanie weenies (vegetarian baked beans with uncured turkey dogs). 1 Reece's pb cup for dessert.

If you'll recall, T wanted to do medifast - yeah, that didn't really work out. So now we have a bunch of the food left. Everything is pretty much 100 calories and balanced macros, so it doesn't matter if its the brownie, biscuit, soup, bar, etc. it's all pretty much the same nutritionally. So I'm trying to use some of it up when I want a snack. I am also sending some with him for work snacks.

So maybe not perfect, but a significant improvement! I did really well on my water too. I went to Goodwill and picked up a couple pair of pants (comfy black slacks and a pair of pink jeans) and a couple of tops for our vacation. I also grabbed some winter PJ pants and a fleece top for around the house.

Take care!

Covid vaccines

 This is about a friend's sister.

https://www.wfmynews2.com/article/news/health/coronavirus/unvaccinated-parents-5-kids-die-regret-not-getting-vaccine-last-words/65-9e2da979-c911-446b-8d39-c655795e33ac

Random

Here is a picture of my lunch from yesterday - baked chicken breast, baked sweet potato rounds, and sautéed spinach. 

That's lunches this week. Breakfast is steel cut oats and dinners are cleaning out the freezer.

I don't know about you, but 30 minutes of swimming and I'm hungrier than Godzilla in Tokyo, but an hour of hard lifting and all I want is a bite of protein bar and to sit quietly for a few minutes.

Halloween movies I've watched so far this year:

The "Fear Street" trilogy on Netflix. This was the big surprise and I enjoyed all of them! 10/10 pumpkins

"Elvira, Mistress of the Dark" (watched with mom who doesn't like scary movies.) 10/10 pumpkins because... Elvira!

"Transylvania 6-5000" (watched with Jeanmaire who doesn't like scary movies.) 10/10 pumpkins. This movie has it all - lots of monsters, a top notch cast (Jeff Goldblum!), excellent writing. An awesome non-scary Halloween movie.

"Halloween Kills".  Jamie Lee Curtis' character spent most of the movie in a hospital bed, probably to be as far away from this movie as possible. She should consider a return to yogurt commercials because they have better scripts and actors. 1/10 pumpkins.

"Nightmare Before Christmas." 10/10 pumpkins.

I'm clearly slacking on the movie watching, I need to pick up the pace!

Catching Up

Good morning.  We got back from our trip to discover one of the circuits in our breaker box was bad. Thankfully the electrician came out & swapped it out - not to expensive but stressful! Also thankful that the half of my house that lost electricity did NOT include my fridge!

Yesterday I went swimming - today is going to be a quick trip to the elliptical and maybe a yoga video at home. We are going to out of town for a few days starting Saturday. Mixed feelings about that. I'm looking forward to the trip but at the same time I'm afraid it's going to throw me off. Sigh.

It was good to go but it's nice to be home. I need some down time - I hope this trip provides that.

Take care.

Better Place

 Two things have changed that suddenly have my head in a much better place!

1) I finally figured out a time that I can meet with my trainer! Evenings are out since she is working a new full time job. She suggested 9 AM, but I'm supposed to start work at 9, so that was a no go. We finally landed on Wednesdays at 8 - it's a bit early for her but I'm only 10 minutes "late" signing in, and I log on earlier to check email etc, so its not an issue. So yay!

I found a new to me show that available on Pluto on demand called "Fit to Fat to Fit". I found it randomly changing channels at lunch yesterday and it has really inspired me and reminded me that I can do this!

Take care.

Getting my head in the game

Step 1 is complete. Food is purchased & prepped so I have breakfasts & lunches for the week.

Breakfast is overnight oats with chopped fruit. Lunch is (sort of) these bowls: chicken tzatziki bowls. I've made the quinoa & chicken and then my plan is to chop the other veggies, add feta & olives and either this vinaigrette or my Amy's goddess dressing. I can serve them either hot or cold, depending on my mood.

I am struggling to get to the gym. I wrote out a simple (but not easy!) home workout, but of course I didn't do it yesterday. Le sigh. Oh well. I'm getting my pieces together and my anxiety seems to be lower today.

Take care.

Making time

Saturday we got away from the house for a bit. We'd hoped to head to the mountains but the weather there didn't cooperate. Instead we went out to lunch, went to the local science center, and I went to Kohl's to buy a pair of jeans that fit. 

Yesterday we cooked at church. I also planned out my meals for the week as well as exercise. Trying to make me a priority.

Real talk y'all

 This has been the week of too many spinning plates. From church obligations, T's colonoscopy today, marriage counseling, work, etc. it's been overwhelming. Add to that dealing with the feelings from our friends' home invasion and I have had a couple of times when my anxiety was through the roof. I've made it to the gym exactly one time, ordered Door Dash, and am skipping a college get together at the end of the month because of how I feel about my weight. I am full of self loathing this week.

I've got to throttle back and do some serious self care. Like, literally doing the things to take care of myself.

Halloween movies

 Like Christmas, I carefully curate my Halloween movie watching. Thinking about the "Fear Street" trilogy, the "Underworld" series, maybe "Little Shop of Horrors" and for sure "Trick 'r treat."

Better

Let me add a disclaimer to my last post: the friends live nowhere near us and overall our neighborhood is pretty darn safe. But still, feelings aren't always rational! I'm discussing with my counselor tomorrow.

Schedules this week are kind of crazy - lots of unusual stuff happening and it's adding up to a wacky gym schedule. Sunday and Monday I did nothing, yesterday I walked for 15 minutes on the elliptical, and today will probably be something similar. I've been trying since Sunday to arrange a time to meet with my trainer, with no success. We set up a time which I need to rearrange (T has a colonoscopy Friday) but she isn't responding. 

Yesterday I had a church meeting, today I get my covid booster (yay!), tomorrow I have an appointment with TSA to get the pre flight certification (if I'm flying for work this makes sense to me). Add a marriage counseling appointment tomorrow evening alongside of T's prep for Friday, Friday appointment, and then a get together of ladies coordinated by Elle of my beloved former gym later Friday evening. Well, you get the idea.

Add that work is becoming busier and more demanding (a good thing!), but it all adds up to a week that feels like it's full of spinning plates. Food yesterday was on point with the exception of scanty vegetables (I planned to have a salad for lunch, instead I ate a chicken thigh and never prepped anything else!).

I have the time to do more, but I lack the spoons to make it happen. Some days you settle for the minimum. That feels like the theme of this week. Trying to be okay with that.

Take care.

Not the greatest evening

T is going back to band - which means practice Monday nights. Not a huge deal, but it's a change. Add to that we found out Saturday that some friends had been subjected to a pretty scary home invasion (Mike will need reconstructive surgery for a broken eye socket and nose) and being home alone last night - and going to bed by myself - was pretty nerve wracking.

I binge ate. Normally T would get home between 9:30 and 10, but practice ran over and it was nearly 10:30 when he got home. I stayed up till 10, but after that I was too tired and went to bed. 

I also skipped the gym b/c I didn't want to leave & come back after dark. So double ugh.

I did go to the gym this morning and I'm doing better today. Gotta find a better way to deal with anxiety!!

Mixed bag

 So the weekend was a mixed bag diet-wise. I am doing better, but a couple of situations where i planned poorly or got over tired and made poor choices meant the scale stayed the same. Oh well, kind of a victory.

I scheduled with my trainer but am having to change - T hadn't let me know he has his colonoscopy Friday! Uh, since i need to drive you kinda important to be on my radar! Lol. How is it that men run the world again???? ha ha

Anyway, one big change is that I am making sessions at the gym a priority!

Take care.

There it is

 I got on the scale this morning. I'm not happy, but I know where I am. 200.2