Living as if...

I think I may have a tough time articulating this, but here I go:

One thing I am working on is "living as if" - living my life as if I were a healthy, active person who doesn't succumb to disordered eating.  Making those choices - going to the gym, eating reasonable portions of meals.  At the same time, shutting down my internal critic when he tries to put so many restrictions and rules around things that I've created a situation where Ghandi would fail.  Do you know what I mean?  Do you set unrealistic expectations for yourself?  That's the ONLY kind I set for myself!

Another thing:  shutting that bit^& up when she starts up.  In the gym "Look at yourself!  You look like a tea pot with arms working out!  You are so fat!"  I quickly derail that line with "Yes, but I am in here working on improving my fitness."

I'm just tired of 1) constantly criticizing myself and 2) creating so many rules and restrictions that I am guaranteed failure.

In other words, my goal is good choices, not perfect choices.

I joined Weight Watchers today.  Woot!  Again, good choices within parameters (points) - but not overly complicating the process.