New Blogger, new hope

I am trying out blogger's new format. I guess I will get used to it.

I lost another pound this week. I am finally beginning to feel some hope that I can relearn my good habits and turn this around. I kept plugging at it, but I will admit I was begin to feel pretty nervous. It was feeling overwhelming.

Things have been tough. My husband has been having a rough time - he's finally back at work, so he's feeling better. It's been emotionally exhausting. I am feeling more positive today.

Take care.

Re-opening for business

So our state is starting to gradually re open. I have mixed feelings, but T is going back to work next week. And he will be the manager of the restaurant here in town!!! So his commute goes from 30 minutes to 5. Especially since he does have to go back some evenings, this opens up a whole new world of his being able to go back to band, maybe rapier practice, the gym, and more time at home.

I am so happy for him - and me! :-)

No mountains

Well, the mountains are still closed. Lol. He wasn't able to stay with a friend and hotels are only open for essential workers, so he is home. It worked out well though, we've had some really heartfelt conversations and I feel like we're pulling together rather than apart in this difficult time. I love my husband so very much - he is such a good man even if he doesn't always see it. I know this is a difficult time for him - as it is for all of us. Sometimes I'm just not sure how to help.

I seem to have turned my weight gain around and have seen some slightly lower numbers. Fingers crossed for me! I'll let you know when I log my weight on Friday.

In other news I am doing the world's longest couch to 5k, because I'll opt to just walk for a week, or I'll miss a run and repeat the week. Good thing I don't have an actual race date! Lol. But I am determined to finish the darn thing!!

Take care.

Home again, home again

We are back home from the beach. It's good to go, but it's good to come home. My bed here is more comfortable :-) I think the change of scenery did us both good and T is looking forward to a couple of days in the mountains.

It sounds like he may be headed back to work soon and I am grateful. This has been TOUGH for him and he has been using food for emotional support, and a couple of evening drinks to relax. My husband doesn't drink regularly - and when he's working he can't on work days. Neither of these are good habits. Luckily he had a doctors appointment today. His knee is tendinitis (he was worried he might need surgery). It isn't anything serious, and his doctor gave him some stretches and chided him for the weight he has put on. I hope it is the nudge he needs. I don't want to harp on him, but I'm concerned. I assured him I would help support him however he asks.

Take care of yourselves!

Recharging

I took tomorrow off work and plan to help mom paint her bathroom. The weather has just gotten better every day, and I've walked on the beach every day but one. I think when we get back home T is going to head up to the mountains and stay with a friend for a couple of days. That is his "recharge" place. We are obviously being very careful, but are trying at this point to balance mental and physical health. NC has reopened somewhat, so there is a bit more flexibility - we are trying hard not to abuse that additional freedom.

Take care.

No shoes, no shirt, (no scale), no problem

Good morning from the beach! Despite a dead car battery (which thankfully happened in town Friday before we left), we arrived safely at our destination Saturday afternoon. It's been a pretty good visit. I am working, but it's so nice to have a change of pace. Not sure it's helping my husband as much as it's helping me, but I do think it's helping.

It was so nice to be down here for Mother's Day. I am so grateful. Other than that, it's basically the same old same old. I am not weighing since I don't have a scale down here, but I can tell you my eating is 1000% better than it was at home. There is an open air produce stand near my mom's house as well as a seafood market. So yummy, fresh & healthy food! Plus some special treats in moderation.

Paula asked whether or not the nutritionist is worth it - I think that depends on you & the nutritionist you see. I firmly believe you can learn something from everyone! It's mainly the extra accountability for me, but having someone review my food log is always helpful. I may know a lot about nutrition, but having someone experienced say "I've seen people have success when they try X" is good - they may see things you don't just because you're too close to it. Hope that makes sense.

Take care of yourselves!

This is hard

We are having a very difficult time. My husband is really depressed. Being a fairly extreme extrovert, sheltering in place is so hard for him. Add being furloughed and he feels he has nothing important going on in his life. I've tried to push him to do stuff here, but I'm afraid it's come across as nagging. We're both stressed. The up side is we are leaving tomorrow to go to my mom's. The state is lifting some restrictions, and we've been super careful over the last 2 weeks so we could go stay at her house and be fairly confident we aren't going to expose her to covid. I'm hoping a change of scenery and pace will help us both mentally.

My weight is up 0.2 pounds this week, which frankly I consider a major victory. I did go back to Lori (nutritionist) Wednesday evening. She said a lot of patients are coming in with 20 pounds weight gains. I stopped mine at 11. It may not fall back off, but I'm hoping that extra boost of accountability will help me. Look if I have to pay $75 a month to have someone look over my food diary, I'm willing to if it helps. My health is worth it.

You guys take care.

Back to what works

For quite some time I was visiting a nutritionist every 2 weeks. After a time it felt silly - do I really need that extra accountability? Right now the answer is yes. She is still open and I have an appointment for Wednesday. I also signed up for Rich Froning's daily workout. I've asked my husband for support.  As Barney Fife would say, I need to "nip it in the bud."

Take care - do what you need to do to take the best care possible of you & yours.

Big virtual hugs.