Well I got my home office redone!
Built ins along back wall, corner built ins with accent wallpaper, new light fixture, and a desk I made out of an old messed up coffee table I got from FB marketplace for $5. All in all a busy couple of weeks, but I love it!
I am coming at losing weight a slightly different way this time. The results will likely be slower. I am trying to change my habits and my mindset, hoping the weight will change as a result.
Right now I'm working on finding a morning routine. This is hard because T is working second shift, Wednesday through Sunday. But for my work mornings, I'm trying to keep a routine that feels good without leaving me anxious. Of course the weather has been cold/ wet so walks have been sporadic. But we did move the stationary bike into the guest room from the garage to use on bad weather days.
It feels slow, but what is the alternative>
I love spring. I adore spring. I truly am solar powered.
My birthday is in April and I am taking a week of work to do projects around the house. Before and after pictures coming soon!
This is a question I've asked myself, my spouse, and honestly one we should all ask ourselves. I recently got a survey from my senator. One of the questions was: Do you think elected officials should work more with the other party to find common ground and get results, or would you rather have them stick to their ideological principles and refuse to work across the aisle, even if it means there are no results?
So, do you want to be right even if you cut off your own nose to do it? When did we all get so dug in? And I don't just mean politically (although we are seeing a horrible case of it in politics) but who really cares whether the forks are in the dishwasher tines up or down? I read a quote once "Housework done wrong still blesses this house." I'm not sure how you even do it wrong. I mean, you might have done a half a$$ job, but it's probably better than it was.
My marriage is happier in part because I no longer waste time or energy trying to get the other human to do everything my way. My heart is lighter. I'm able to enjoy more when I'm not being outraged by the can that didn't get put in the recycle bin.
Compromise is necessary, even desirable. How are we so sure we're 100% on everything all the time?
I went to the gym! It's spring and we have daylight! It's like all of a sudden I've come back to life.
Sunday I did a heated yoga session. Kicked my butt! Yesterday we used a gift certificate I bought us for Valentine's day to a float spa and we did a session there. I will definitely go again! I slept so well last night.
We are going to the gym later this afternoon. I feel like I'm getting my habits back where I'd like them to be.
Yay me!
Its so weird - T is working second shift and my whole schedule is upended. And for watever reason coming here is not a habit in this house.
I joined a gym this week!
I have been super busy - a friend got a big award (on our historical recreation group) and I helped plan that out. It's a really big deal & was a lot of work, but we pulled it off. My side hustle is keeping me busy and my son & gf are celebrating their birthdays this weekend at our house, so meal prep and gifts have been keeping me busy.
I'm kind of meh and I can't really say why. Weight is holding steady, so clearly I have mastered maintaining. Lol. If only I were 70 pounds lighte
It has been so cold here I don't even want to leave the house. That's not an excuse - I certainly own fitness equipment. But I have been embracing my inner potato. After a weekend of too much football food, I am thankful this week is warming up so I can get outside!
Yesterday was a long day. My primary GP is still in Durham at the VA - a little over 2 hours away. I really like her and since I only go maybe 2x per year, it's worth it to stay with her. Yesterday a friend rode with me to go for a follow up. While I was there I got a pap smear, blood and urine tests, and covid & flu vaccines. So it was a long trip but now I don't need to go back for an annual check up!
Anyway, she reassured me that recovery is a process and it's normal to still be tired.
My weight is still up a couple of pounds, but I'm back to keeping an eye on my food and waiting until lunch to eat. I need to add back in weight training. Maybe tomorrow....
Got the car issue resolved for less than $150, so that's a win. My snacking continues to rage out of control and the scale is up 4 pounds - time to turn this around!
It's been a week.
Got the snacking under control, then Wednesday my car wouldn't start. For some reason I was really upset - far more than it should have warranted. I texted my son to help me troubleshoot and he used it as an opportunity to dump his bad week on me. So I ended up going to the store for beer & snacks. Yikes.
Luckily I had an appointment with my counselor Thursday and we talked about it and that gave me some good reinforcement on better options. Not to mention beer tears up my digestive tract for a couple of days after which was a pretty good aversion therapy reminder.
Despite my best efforts (ha ha) I was down 0.1 pounds this week. I'll take it!
Take care of yourselves.
Ate a bunch of crap last night (mindless evening snacking is my achilles heel). Up 1.5 pounds. Not doing that again today.
I am STILL taking an afternoon nap y'all! No exercise yet beyond light housework. Steps are maybe in the 6k range. But the combination of reduced snacking and no alcohol (my body needs to focus on healing right now) means I'm down another 1.5 pounds. I'll take it!
I am eating better and limiting my snacks, and trying to eat breakfast late or not at all. Seems to be working but I'm looking forward to getting out and walking. I have an appointmnt with my doctor on the 17th so we'll see what she has to say.
Happy holidays!
I hope you enjoyed your break. I got sick (really sick) the week before Christmas. My second trip to the emergency room they found a kidney infection. It was awful and I was horribly sick (throwing up, diarrhea, high fever, chills) for 7 days. Once I started the antibiotics and other meds, I started feeling better.
I was too sick to even have Christmas until this past Saturday. But despite that, it was a good holiday. A friend was coming down so she wouldn't be alone over the holiday and thank goodness. Tim was working and I was nowhere near well enough to take care of myself. Having someone at the house was such a blessing.
Things with Tim have improved dramatically - the combination of his switching to a lower stress job and me setting healthy boundaries has made a huge difference.
My energy is still pretty low - I'm not exercising yet and I'm still taking a mid afternoon nap, but I am so much better!
I started 2024 at 206.5 - 1.5 heavier than I started the year but 7 pounds less than I was before I got sick. So there's that. As a diet strategy, I cannot recommend it but I'm thankful for the loss. I know that is also helping me feel better.
Here's to a better new year!
Just a note about my last post - we aren't 100% sure at this point that divorce is the end goal. Happiness is the end goal and if we can get there together then its certainly an easier result.
Things aren't bad. Still kinda weird. Actually tracking my steps and working on my eating. Things are a lot better since T moved to the guest room. Not sure what the future holds, but I'm doing alright.
As you can imagine, my holidays have been a mixed bag so far. Thanksgiving was nice (fresh oysters at my son's), mom's birthday yesterday was great (we all took the day off work to do fun things!), my good friend Cathy came for a few days.
But my spouse is living in the guest room and although he says he wants our marriage, his actions indicate he misses his mommy taking care of him. And that ship has sailed. I don't really want to go through a divorce and I'm not in a big rush. But this is just a lull while I sort stuff out - not a long term go forward plan.
Sigh.
Take care y'all.
