A tired and troubled heart
I try to keep things in perspective, although I freely admit I don’t always succeed. I’ve tried to stay positive even though I spent $1250 on car maintenance yesterday, even though my sun roof won’t close all the way and it has rained every day and night here lately, even though we can’t pack for vacation because we can’t secure the loaded trailer in the garage because we have to keep the car there (see sun roof). These are the annoyances of life in modern America, and I am trying to keep them in perspective.
But I still feel vaguely overwhelmed by the amount of prep and packing that must be done. I am probably blowing it out of proportion, but being limited in what I can do makes it hard to keep perspective.
Sometimes my hobby can be a pain in the butt. I am the treasurer for the state, and sometimes I get tired of dealing with folks that don’t want to follow the rules (hello, they are IRS rules, not Me rules) and then make out like the people enforcing the rules are jerks. I get tired of the politics of it all, but I largely enjoy it and I realize that if competent people don’t step up and do the difficult jobs then we won’t continue to exist. But sometimes when I am tired it feels like a pain in the butt.
And I get down because bad things happen in the world. I am disappointed by the latest scandal rocking the cycling world, but I have to say this thing with the NFL player troubles me a lot. If he is guilty of the charges against him (and it sure does sound like the charges against him are rock solid), then he is a truly evil man. So why do we revere people like that and pay them millions of dollars? I know the world isn’t a fair place, but sometimes the cruelty seems like more than the human heart should have to bear.
I realize this is a pretty down post, I just felt the need to dump some of this sadness and tiredness. I know we will get packed and we will go on vacation and we will be with good and loving people. I wish I could make the world clean, I guess all I can do is take care of my little corner.
Hugs to you all.
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2 comments:
Someone's got to do the tough jobs, indeed.
DOn't let the scandals get you down - you're telling your own story, and people are tuning in. There is more good in the world than most folks realize. The tide is turning, money and power corrupt, and folks like you and me have neither - hence, good, quality stories.
Buck up camper, things will get better.
I'm with Jank, buck up camper and have a good holiday. You have the tough job because you're capable and you should be proud of that.
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