Brain Dump

The scale is not my friend – I have gained 3 pounds since we started this “Fit-n-Fun” thing at work. Right now, it’s not feeling like a lot of fun. I am the highest weight I’ve ever been, excluding pregnancy. That’s a tough pill to swallow! The really difficult thing is that it is having an adverse impact on my quality of life. I’m only 5’2”, so this extra 20 pounds makes a huge difference. When I walk the dog, if she pulls, my back is screaming after a half a mile. My shins hurt when I walk or jog. I come home from a walk hurting – that’s serious.

Weight training is a lot easier, and the boy and I are going twice a week. I need to bump that up to 3, but that’s a solid start. I am also able to do interval training on the elliptical, so I need to make those sessions a priority. I have just added them back into the mix.

Food has been very up and down. I’ve had a huge amount of stress. For one, I thought my treasurer boss in my medieval group might be stepping down, and was thinking I might need to step into her shoes. While I’d like the job one day, not Today! The boy has been difficult, and so has the husband. Luckily, hub finished up his side job and they aren’t currently working weekends, so that makes him happier. After a few phoneless days, the boy seems to be improving. They went and played paintball together Saturday – I think they needed the time. And the boy & I have been doing the gym thing, so that gives us something we are doing together. For a while it seemed everyone was just going their own way & none of us were doing very well. We’re interacting more, work stress has declined, so things are looking up.

I was considering posting for a job on another team in the department – it’s the same band level, just a “senior” v. “junior”, but it would mean a raise while doing basically the same job. I thought about putting in for it, even though I love working for my boss and feel he is really helping me in terms of professional development. I was nervous about that – I felt that b/c of our tight finances, I needed to put in for the job, but my heart wasn’t in it. I talked to my boss, and he agreed I was ready. He said that he can put me in for just a straight promotion since it isn’t up a level (for that you have to post for a new job), and told me he would make that recommendation to his boss! Not sure when that will happen, but that is great news. I didn’t post for the other job, and I feel much happier – not only that I’ll be staying, but that he has that much confidence in me. Also, we’ve been given a more firm direction to work in for next year, which makes me feel good. This year has felt like we were kinda drifting, which I dislike.

So, work is much better, home is better, my exercise is picking up. Hopefully now that the stress levels are down the food will be easier to get back under control. I am seriously considering going shakes for a couple of meals 2 or 3 days a week until I make some progress. I know that isn’t a long term solution, but I could use some good news on the scale for a change.