Who used to write this blog????

The other day I was cleaning some old documents off my hard drive. It was obvious what many were (recipes), but others I couldn't tell by the name, so I opened them up. Several were old entires. Funnily enough, the first one was my first entry. I probably read 6 entires or so. Now, I never go back and read my old entries, so I hadn't read this stuff in years.

What struck me was how different my tone was when I began writing this blog. At that point I'd been exercising faithfully for over 2 years and was well on my weight loss journey. I was so much more positive - I sounded so much more confident than I was back then. It made me realize how this .. malaise .. has spread to all aspects of my life.

Now, exercise isn't going to solve all my problems. I am well into prei-menopause, so my hormones are going pretty wacky. But I do know that exercise can 1) help me physically and 2) help give me a sense of control in a very turbulent time. I can't control what happens at work, but I can control my responses. And exercise can help with that.

My husband helped me overhaul the guest room - I now have shelving in the closet to store a bunch of stuff. The futon is propped against one wall (it looks kinda dumb, but who cares?). I have a tv, vcr, and dvd. We keep the doors closed (so the dogs can't get in), and in the winter this room is cooler than the rest of the house. In short, it has become an excellent exercise area! I have a shelf with my workout dvds and vhs tapes, and a shelf for my workout equipment.

It's been in the teens and 20s in the morning, and I just haven't been able to convince myself to go walk outside. That's okay - I now have a "no excuse" zone. :-)

The girl that used to write this blog sounded far happier and healthier than the one writing now - I think I want to get her back.