Am I serious?

Sometimes I wonder if I really want to lose weight. As miserable as being overweight makes me, you’d think this would be a no brainer. And yet I go along, making foolish choices. Why did I buy sweet knots when I stopped in at the product stand yesterday? Cause I ate them after dinner – with a beer. Sigh.

I want to lose weight, but clearly I don’t seem able/ready to do the hard work to change my behavior in a permanent way that is required for that to happen.

That said, I watched a really great documentary last night called “Spirit of the Marathon” – so much so that I purchased the book, which was a follow-up book to “First Marathons”, which I also purchased. So much for my “don’t spend money” resolution for the month (Butchie is in surgery this morning, plus of course we’re still paying off serious amounts of car repair).

I keep looking for the thing that will inspire permanent change, rather than a never ending series of temporary changes.