Last week I spent a lot of time thinking. Not on the computer, just thinking. I haven't made any sort of secret about the fact that I am really struggling right now. Last week I really wanted to just give up. Not sure what, but I was just kinda done with everything!
Lots of stupid stuff around a car accident (everyone okay, a girl ran a sign & clipped my son). The parents don't have insurance, we're hoping they will pay up without being taken to court. And my insurance was going to double even though it wasn't his fault (I switched companies). It's just been stress, stress, stress. Not important stuff, just aggravating.
And I'm just tired. Hence all the thinking. What it boils down to is this: how do I want to live? Not someday, today? What do I want my life to look like? What can I do to make now look like that? if not in all the details, at least in the feelings?
I have a nice weekend visiting friends in Asheville Saturday, and then was sick all day yesterday (throwing up). Yuck. I am taking tonight off of exercise and today I stuck to small meals of bland food. I feel better.
Wednesday we are leaving for Georgia for a long weekend. I'll be taking my computer, but I don't know what the internet situation will be.
Weight is steady, so that's .. okay. Not great, but not going in the wrong direction. Mentally I think I'm going in the right direction, but I expect it will be quite a process.
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Sorry about the accident, the insurance, the barfing. :(
Yes, it's a process. There will be good days, and bad days. From the outside looking in, you really are doing pretty well, though. Hang in there, and give yourself the gift of time to heal.
Thanks Gwen, love you!
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