Who do you want to be today?

This weekend I decided to scrub off the “V” (for “victim”) I apparently wrote on my forehead a couple of weeks ago. Yes, this is always a stressful time of year. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself was a good idea, but unfortunately it didn’t work. Stress at home on a multitude of fronts, sadness about the hurricane, the fact that tomorrow is the 4 year anniversary of the death of a friend – I used all that as excuses to overeat and overdrink. Here I sit at the end of it, feeling so much worse for the wear.

Yeah, I still overindulged a bit this weekend. But I took time to do some things I wanted to. I painted the top of my vegetable bin. I painted a quilt block on the top, with some other decorative painting. I bought school supplies for my son, checked out the new gym, bought fall fabric and traded out my tablecloths & kitchen valences for new ones I made yesterday. I made homemade potato salad (a first!) based on what my mom said my grandma used to put in hers. I had a house full of people over for a cookout.

I also went running. God it felt so good. The cool morning air this time of year is really something special. In the name of being “kind” to myself, I’ve been doing myself a terrible disservice. Failing to take my vitamins for a week??? How is that being nice to me?

Pity party is over. I am still feeling down, but eating buffalo pretzels ain’t the answer. Instead of shoving the feelings under a pile of food - I decided to feed my body what it really needs: healthy food, sleep, & exercise. And to feed my soul with some artistic creation.

Today’s title taken from that font of wisdom, Oingo Boingo.