And back down

Back down again. The boy and I had a long talk yesterday. He is miserable here and wants to go back to NC for sure. As a parent, it is so painful to see your child unhappy. Even though this move isn't my "fault" (or anyone elses), I still feel incredibly guilty for his unhappiness.

There are times in your life when all you can do is just put your head down and focus on putting one foot in front of the other and trudging down the path. It's not a very positive way to feel, but sometimes that's all you can do. That's where I am right now. It's like the antithesis of buddhist mindfulness.

I know it will be okay, but it isn't okay right now.