Thursday I went downstairs and did step aerobics and then did a short yoga video with Rodney Yee. I checked my bp after working out and it was lower than it was when I first came in to the office for the day. I thought that was interesting. Maybe it was the relaxation portion of the yoga??? :-)
Today is Jillian Michael's "Ripped in 30", possibly followed by stretching video.
Sometimes I feel like I sound negative, especially of late. I don't think of myself as a "glass half empty" person at all. I think I'm more like this:
See, the glass isn't half empty, it's half full! BUT, it's awfully close to the edge of the table and I would hate for the glass to fall becuase it belonged to my grandmother.....
Do you see where I'm going? I'm not negative, I worry. And that's not good either. You would think that by my age I would have figured out a way to "let go and let god" or "go with the flow" or whatever. But I haven't. So I use this blog to process things - especially change and big decisions. So you get to read my "brain dumps" as I work through this stuff. And right now I have a LOT to work through!
Weight remained the same, still a couple of pounds lower, but 2 weeks of not moving. I know why - my lack of consistency. Now my plan is to see how much I can get the needle to move before I go to the doctor on the 19th. It's not about "lose x pounds", but about adhering to good lifestyle choices with food, exercise, sleep, and relaxtion between now and then, and then see what the doctor says.
Here is a pretty powerful thought: "If you are on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road." —C.S. Lewis
That's pretty counter to how we are conditioned to live in the modern world. It's all about progress, and moving forward. How many people voluntarily downsize, or change careers to something lower paying? People do it, but that is far from the norm. And I think making that choice creates a lot of cognitive dissonance - it's what we want but it's contrary to what conventional thinking says we should want.
I've never been one to follow the beat of my own drummer. Never. I was always the quiet geeky girl in the science club, introverted and just not wanting to make waves. So this process of really delving into what I want and how I want to live is pretty radical for me. I think the end result will be awesome, but the path feels like walking through poison ivy, or maybe clearing a path through the underbrush with a machete! :-)
Have a great weekend and enjoy the Superbowl (if you are into that sort of thing)!
3 comments:
Ha! You KNOW I love that drawing! Had the t shirt of it, in fact. LOL
Yeah, watch the bp. I have 'white coat syndrome', meaning my bp naturally spikes when I walk in a doctor's office. Which doesn't help. It's come down a lot, but I still need half a pill twice a day. Way better than it being out of control with two different pills, twice a day, though! So I can most definitely thank Primal for that!
That, and trying to embrace a more 'Zen' way of thinking. It's a learned habit, at least for us fellow worry warts. Did you know that 80-90% of what we worry about, never comes to be/pass/happen? It's true!
Gwen, Things only DON'T happen if we worry about them! ha ha ha
I've got that anxiety girl t-shirt coz' it definitely describes me!
Following your own path/desires/wants can be scary, but really rewarding (or so I'm told -- I'm trying it out for myself too). :)
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