Stepping out into the Sun

So, I had an interesting conversation with Father H. yesterday at lunch (note: can I just say I find it freaky-deeky that I spend the occasional lunch talking with a priest?). I was describing what it felt like those 2 weeks where I didn’t use food at all to insulate myself from life. I said, “It’s like stepping out into bright sunlight with no sunglasses. There is no buffer between you and your emotions.” He really keyed onto that word “buffer” and we talked a little about how emotional eaters use food to act as a buffer between themselves & their emotions. And I think most people use something on a pretty regular basis: shopping, working out, sleeping, cooking, - you get it. It’s like it’s too much to take in all at once.

One of my goals for next week is to use my food buffer as little as possible. I won’t say not at all, but minimize that behavior. And be conscious of it when I do CHOOSE to engage in that behavior.

I’m up one pound – 151.5. Okay, I’ll take that. I plan to not gain next week, and then back to the business of losing when I get back. So, 2 weeks until next weigh-in and hopefully a small loss to post!

It will be weird not writing in this blog for a week. That will be the longest I’ve gone without posting in the 15 months since I started it.

So, the stomach thing yesterday. What did I do to myself? Either I ate some combination of food that was evil, or I had a mild case of food poisoning – my stomach hurt worse & worse as the day wore on. I mean, sharp pain! It was obviously gas (I looked pregnant!). The sucky thing was that kind of pains feels similar to hunger pains, so I kept wanting to eat, then having to remind myself that eating to excess would make it worse. I did fine with food, despite poor planning on what I brought in and then the pain. Yuck. I am feeling better this morning.

Anyway, I hope you all have a great week and I can’t wait to read some fantastic workout reports when I get back! I’m gonna miss my blog friends!