Deprived of what?
It’s been a busy day but a productive one. I ate a good breakfast, my usual snack, plus a healthy lunch that tasted good. I was walking down the hall and the thought popped into my head “I feel deprived.”
Deprived of what? Food of course. I felt like I deserved “a treat.” Here are the questions I asked myself at that moment:
1. Why does eating well mean you are deprived? How does that earn you the right to go eat the 280 calorie bag of buffalo pretzels in the vending machine? I’m not hungry – a little tired yes, but not hungry.
2. Don’t I deserve something better than food? I am deprived – of some very nice clothes hanging in my closet! Don’t I deserve to look & feel my best? Isn’t that better than buffalo pretzels?
So I went to the vending machine & bought the pretzels. No, I am not eating them. The point is I have them. They aren’t going away. And Friday night when I have a snack while watching TV I will have the perfect snack – not something I’ve settled for. And they are safe in my desk drawer where no one can buy all the stupid pretzels so there won’t be any on Friday. Sheesh. Sounds silly, but I feel better knowing I have them squirreled away. Now I don’t have to worry about obsessing over them.
Sometimes I exasperate even myself.
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Gosh for some reason that makes absolute sense to me! I have discovered that when I have my favorite snack (cookies) at home or in my desk at work I don't end up eating up everything sweet in the house or from the snack shop at work trying to find something that satisfies the lust for what I really desire, a cookie! And most of the time I am satisfied with one or two cookies, whereas I might go through a whole bag of candy, chocolate (especially) or whatever trying to get satisfied.
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